FuneralCry
Just wanting some peace
- Sep 24, 2020
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Everyday I always envy those who ctb so much. I view it as being such a beautiful and admirable thing to choose to prevent unnecessary suffering and manage to overcome all of the struggles involved in voluntarily dying in order to successfully leave. I also see so much beauty in having options of reliable and peaceful methods avaliable, those with N especially are the most fortunate and luckiest people that exist but sadly I believe that only those who are very lucky die the most peaceful suicide and that is a tragedy. If only it was possible to just pass away peacefully but sadly it's not the reality for so many.
I see no value in deciding to delay the inevitable, such a thing could never be beneficial, rather it could only be a disadvantage and I hate the fact that I've managed to endure something so awful as existing for this long. I believe that the less years spent here, the better. It's the most desirable thing to leave as soon as possible, as I see beauty in limiting potential pain and torture and as long as we exist there is simply no limit as to how much we can suffer and that fact is undeniable. There is nothing more wonderful to me than returning to the state of non existence which is what I would see as being true peace and is of course what I believe lies awaiting for us after this. Death is freedom from the torment that existence brings and non existence is true perfection to me. Only peace could lie in the absence of everything and such a thing could never exist in this world filled with pain, anguish and endless despair.
To die will always be the most beautiful thing as life itself is the true problem, to exist means to suffer endlessly and it's a punishment having to exist, life is something so disturbing and horrific and it's something I've always wished to avoid. Life is just a way to provide torture to existing beings in an endless cycle that continues to repeat and it's such a cruel mistake how life is even able to exist in the first place. Therefore to die means to be free and this could never be a tragic thing as those who die are so incredibly fortunate, it's nonsense to call something a 'tragedy' when in fact death removes all sadness and solves all problems, those who are gone will always be lucky. There is so much beauty in the thought of being at rest, having the inability to suffer, being long forgotten about and for the torturous burden that is existence to no longer be our concern. I've always wished to die and found the thought of death to be so incredibly comforting, if only we didn't have to suffer so much in finding ways to finally leave.
I see no value in deciding to delay the inevitable, such a thing could never be beneficial, rather it could only be a disadvantage and I hate the fact that I've managed to endure something so awful as existing for this long. I believe that the less years spent here, the better. It's the most desirable thing to leave as soon as possible, as I see beauty in limiting potential pain and torture and as long as we exist there is simply no limit as to how much we can suffer and that fact is undeniable. There is nothing more wonderful to me than returning to the state of non existence which is what I would see as being true peace and is of course what I believe lies awaiting for us after this. Death is freedom from the torment that existence brings and non existence is true perfection to me. Only peace could lie in the absence of everything and such a thing could never exist in this world filled with pain, anguish and endless despair.
To die will always be the most beautiful thing as life itself is the true problem, to exist means to suffer endlessly and it's a punishment having to exist, life is something so disturbing and horrific and it's something I've always wished to avoid. Life is just a way to provide torture to existing beings in an endless cycle that continues to repeat and it's such a cruel mistake how life is even able to exist in the first place. Therefore to die means to be free and this could never be a tragic thing as those who die are so incredibly fortunate, it's nonsense to call something a 'tragedy' when in fact death removes all sadness and solves all problems, those who are gone will always be lucky. There is so much beauty in the thought of being at rest, having the inability to suffer, being long forgotten about and for the torturous burden that is existence to no longer be our concern. I've always wished to die and found the thought of death to be so incredibly comforting, if only we didn't have to suffer so much in finding ways to finally leave.