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- Dec 12, 2023
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life is just all about distractions and the illusion of purpose. i hate having to just try and find things that dont matter to try and make myself feel a bit better. i dont know how non suicidal people can do it, no matter what they do with their lives, no matter how good everything is, its all exactly the same in the end. i almost wish i was religious, just so i could convince myself that its not just gonna be nothing like everyone else, and that if i act better, ill get to go to some type of paradise.
but i dont believe in anything like that at all, i used to force it when i was younger, but it didnt work, so it all just fell apart. now, everyday is just trying to find distractions until im in a posisition where i can ctb, and thats all life ever really is
but i dont believe in anything like that at all, i used to force it when i was younger, but it didnt work, so it all just fell apart. now, everyday is just trying to find distractions until im in a posisition where i can ctb, and thats all life ever really is