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wait i'm goated
- Feb 12, 2023
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i force myself to find positive things each day. each thing i find boosts my mood a bit, but that happiness immediately tanks. i think the practice is okay, any positivity is a good thing when you're this desperate. this also gives me something to do and a goal to achieve, so that's also nice. still, i was expecting more. i struggle to find anything positive because there's nothing good in my life. i do the same exact things every single day and it all makes me miserable. every step of my monotonous daily routine makes me sad. there's nothing to look forward to. i don't look forward to work, i don't look forward to going home, i don't look forward to eating, i don't look forward to seeing my cats, i don't look forward to sleeping. all of these things feel exhausting and make me sad. i have no hobbies to engage in and no people to interact with, all of my free time is spent just sitting around by myself or self harming. i try to go out of my way to find/create good things, but there's still nothing. my life is really lame and pitiful, but i can't really do anything to change it. there'd be no point in trying to change these things, anyway.
this, basically:
i think most people feel this way, so it's whatever. everyone here is probably experiencing the same thing, it's really nothing special.
this, basically:
i think most people feel this way, so it's whatever. everyone here is probably experiencing the same thing, it's really nothing special.
