There's no point in hoping

[Jupit3rs]

My head is pulsating and hurting from all the crying today. Its been a while... but im here again, realizing that hope kills in the most painful and torturous way possible. I thought I could get better, that I was finally given a opportunity to be loved and cared for. Of course, it was a false alarm, my heart cannot lie and i feel broken, useless, undeserving of compassion. My rope is the only thing remaining intact and probably, my only consolation. Why do we have to suffer? I can't stop sobbing right now, thinking that there's more people like me, experiencing this hell... It stings... Everything hurts... I dont know what i should do... I'm a bad person? I'm in this pain bc I deserve it? I don't get it.
I really thought i could get better. I'm such a fool

 

[Naro]

Hey its rough out there sometimes and I don't think you are a bad person and you don't deserve it and if you need someone to talk to about it just lmk

 

[niki wonoto]

I can relate.
Everything that I've tried, always just failed in the end.
It hurts, & depressed me so much.

 

[FuneralCry]

It's certainly very true that hope is a delusion to just be taken away and inevitably lead to more suffering. There really is nothing positive about existing in this chaotic and unpredictable world where there is unlimited potential to be tormented, life in itself undeniably is the true problem. But anyway the fact is that life really is so unnecessarily cruel, and this world where people suffer all through no fault of their own is such a hellish place.
I wish you the best.

 

[Viranamari]

I never felt hope for a long time so I'm in no position to talk. It's a pleasant feeling but honestly, what's the point? You're just going to be let down by this horrible world. Having hope is of course, a good thing but it simply leads to more suffering. Try not to blame yourself for hoping. More often than not, people face problems for things they didn't even do. Unfortunately, existence is the main reason of all of this which is why I believe death is the only way to escape it. Anyways, I certainly hope things get better.

 

[SilentSadness]

Hope is necessary to ctb. Without it, one simply can't gain the motivation to use one of the brutal methods available. So unfortunately, hope is necessary to escape this brutish world.