ikadasui
Arcanist
- May 29, 2018
- 466
I'm completely fucked. I have literal weeks maybe months until I have to do it. If I stay alive I'll be forced out and my mom will have to help me pay rent further increasing her debt while I suffer in a hellish run down apartment again and I REFUSE to every do that again. I'm stuck in dead end jobs that make me wanna neck myself daily, and I only work 4-5 hours a fucking day. When I have to actually move out and make real money I'll need to be running a full time job and fuck all of that. I can't maintain my relationships any longer I don't remember who I was and I can no longer interact properly with friends. I lose more of them by the day and soon there won't be any left and I'll be completely alone. My min is so eroded I can't even type properly anymore, I can't drink acohol or my body goes numb, weed gives me anxiety and best of all I've been kicked off my familys insurance so I can't get real meds to help. Great system here in the US we got going on right guys!! My mouth gets worse by the day from my former ed and without treatment which I can't fucking afford it will only worsen until it all rots and falls out further ruining my already dirt self esteem. I am completely and utterly fucked in all regards.