Help THERE IS NO RELIEF AFTER SUCIDE

[monebeta2]

GUYS I RECENTLY TRIED SUICIDE WITH A HELP OF SCAM ARTIST, OR A HITMAN FROM MEXICO. I PLANNED TO FINISH WITH BARBITURATES, AS LIFE IS FULL OF SHIT AND BOREDOM.

BELIEVE ME, OR NOT REALLY NOT MAKING IT UP. TRYING TO SHARE HERE IF YOU GUYS ARE READY TO BE IN A PLACE ITS FUCKED THEN GET READY FOR IT. AND YOU WONT HAVE THIS BODY TO JERK OFF AS WELL WHEN REALLY BORED.

I WAS IN REALLY BAD MENTAL STAGE. SO FOUND SOMEONE ONLINE FROM MEXICO, OR USA WHO KNOWS, FUCKER WAS SPEAKING BROKEN LANGUAGE. I JUST WANTED TO CTB.

SO, HE CAME AND THEN AGREED BTC WAS PAID AND HE SAID HE GOT SLEEPING DOSE AND INJECTION BARBITURATES. SO I SAID LETS DO OCT 14TH AND THEN DRANK BEER ALL DAY LONG HE CAME AND GAVE ME 14 PILLS TO GO DEEP IN SLEEP AROUND 6PM, SO TOOK PILLS AND AFTER FEW HOURS BODY WAS BIT DIZZY BUT STILL WASN'T REALLY TO GO TO SLEEP. SO BY 11PM, I MSGD AND HE CAME WITH 2 INJECTION AND SAID THIS IS LETHAL ONE. ONLY 5MINS SO I WAS READY, BUT WANTED TO DO IT SLEEP BUT WHAT CAN WE SAY I WAS AWAK AND AFTER INJECTION 30MINS NOTHING HAPPENED AND HE WAS LIKE I DONT KNOW IT WORKS, IN HIS BROKEN LANGUAGE. BUT OFCOURSE HE TOOL WAS FUCKED OR HE WAS ONLY AFTER BTC. ANYWAYS I ASKED HIM TO CHOKE ME AND FINISH AS THIS WAS UNEXPECTED, SO WHEN HE WAS CHOKING ME FIRST FEW SECONDS MAY BE UPTO 20SECONDS WAS STRUGGLING BUT SUDDENTLY FROM YOUR EYES VEL DISAPPEAR AND LIKE A WHITE MIST COMES FROM YOUR MOUTH IN COLD SURROUNDINGS AND A BURNT DOWN TREE APPEARS IN A NIGHT SETTING AND WITH IN 4-5 SECOND THAT WAS ENOUGHB FOR ME TO SCARE ME WHERE MY SPIRIT WILL BE WHEN HIS COMPLETE CHOKE FINISHES.

THEN I STARTED FIGHTING WITH FULL FORCE AND HE HAD TO RELEIF ME. THEN THAT SHOCK WAS ENOUGH TO NOT TRY AGAIN. BUT HE DISAPPEARED THAT NIGHT SAYING HE WILL BRING DOSE AND BULLSHIT AND LEFT ME WITH NO FUNDS.

SO, GUYS DONT TRY IF YOU DONT WANT TO WANDER IN UGLY BURNTDOWN WOODS WITH CREAPY JUNGLE.

REALLY CURIOUS TO KNOW TRY AND ASK FOR HELP TO SEE WHAT APPEARS AFTERWARD.

SO, NOT MUCH RELAXED SETTING AFTERWARDS AS WELL.

LET THE NATURAL PROCESS TO FINISH.

Take care of yourself, time will change make friends and be happy whatever you doing. Unless really wants to be on otherside straight away.

 

[Meditation guide]

I have a question about the burnt tree in a night setting: are you by any chance Catholic, or if not what is your religion? Can you describe the tree more? What color was it and the surroundings? Was the tree upright? Or laying down? Was it just one tree?

 

[voyager]

LET THE NATURAL PROCESS TO FINISH.

You're right. Lets close the forum down, hand in our means, pop some pills and live out our lives!

 

[monebeta2]

I have a question about the burnt tree in a night setting: are you by any chance Catholic, or if not what is your religion? Can you describe the tree more? What color was it and the surroundings? Was the tree upright? Or laying down? Was it just one tree?

I was raised in Hindu family and never believed any of that shit. I believed we all same, just different colour tone.

I was ok for upto 10-20 seconds, there were more trees and realy shitty colour weather plus they all were looking burntdown place . I myself was a white MIST there were no body. So, surely no same body. I was like a thick white MIST that you get in stupid europe at the time of winter.

It took over 48hours now to hold my self and see if i got enough to continue or not but still not worried about money what I saw.

I believe to suicide, we think we will wander more weired places without body until you do your time by our creator. I am really shocked thought wow Saturday will be fun.

I think needs to do more time on shit planet. Will work to help poor people and those who needs some help rather then wasting my life.

Money come and go, I think You do get this body rarely.

 

[R_N]

It is just your brain doing it's thing. When it completely shuts down you don't exist anymore because everything you think you are is inside your head.

Only lifeless body will remain.

 

[Hollowman]

You're right. Lets close the forum down, hand in our means, pop some pills and live out our lives!

Lol

 

[leavingsoon99]

You're right. Lets close the forum down, hand in our means, pop some pills and live out our lives!

I guess we just let life kick our asses. Gawd will be angry if we don't.

 

[monebeta2]

It is just your brain doing it's thing. When it completely shuts down you don't exist anymore because everything you think you are is inside your head.

Only lifeless body will remain.

Brother or sister, if my brain wanted to do this..it should have showed me porn, or beautiful babes to calm me down. But I was else where, with disgusting thing that you don't won't be struck.

So, again that's your View and I know what I saw first that change on view and then myself fighting him to release me.

I Spent my entire money as I was that much ready. Flew to Paris, did Airbnb and made sure and before this day i enjoyed drove a lamborgini, ate fancy restaurant, drank beer, enjoyed trips here over 50k life saving spent.

Emailing that guy give me 20k brother so that I can sort myself out but I know no hope. So, yeah it was a eye opener.

I don't wants to recommend but 2 suicide addicts likes to do, try with full force and no mercy in between but again there has to be a way to tap so that person do release the guy taping.

I even messaged that guy to get me a gun as that will be easy as that guy just flew away.

 

[FuneralCry]

I find these fear mongering posts to be tiresome personally, I thought this place was supposed to be a place free from pro-life nonsense. I don't care what you think, I very strongly believe we just cease existing, consciousness is stored in the brain, once we die, that's it for us, we are gone. Only death can bring me relief, it's true relief from the hellish mistake that is existence.

 

[Meditation guide]

I had a friend die. Before I knew she died, I had a dream of her: I was carrying her to a
place which was all burned down dead trees. I put her down under one of the dead trees. It was like a very ugly horrible place, all grey, the trees were all dead, and dripping water like wet, ugly dead branches sticking out. Horrible. She had a sad look on her face, She had died in a car accident.

When I saw her dead at her open casket wake (she was Catholic so I thought maybe she was in "limbo" a bad place Catholics think they go to after death) she had on the same dress I had seen in my dream, long white dress with little red roses all over it. I had never seen her in that dress before.

She definitely had a body, she looked just the same as in life. That dream made me think it was real since the same dress in the dream was the one she had on. I hadn't even known she had died yet when I had that strange dream of her.

About the white mist you described: I have done mediumistic stuff a couple of times, talked to my friends dead brother, he walked out of a white fog, like a mist along with his aunt, to come talk to me, they always come through a wall of fog, white, to come talk to me. They have bodies, they look like they do in real life.

I'm freaked out now to hear someone else saw that burnt forest of dead trees. I always assumed my friend went there because she was Catholic and it was the place they call limbo. Her death in a car accident was in a way her own fault since she was telling her boyfriend driving to go faster and faster over some small hills and their car slammed into a tree.

 

[R_N]

Brother or sister, if my brain wanted to do this..it should have showed me porn, or beautiful babes to calm me down. But I was else where, with disgusting thing that you don't won't be struck.

So, again that's your View and I know what I saw first that change on view and then myself fighting him to release me.

I Spent my entire money as I was that much ready. Flew to Paris, did Airbnb and made sure and before this day i enjoyed drove a lamborgini, ate fancy restaurant, drank beer, enjoyed trips here over 50k life saving spent.

Emailing that guy give me 20k brother so that I can sort myself out but I know no hope. So, yeah it was a eye opener.

I don't wants to recommend but 2 suicide addicts likes to do, try with full force and no mercy in between but again there has to be a way to tap so that person do release the guy taping.

I even messaged that guy to get me a gun as that will be easy as that guy just flew away.

Sorry if I was rude in my approach but that is genuinely what I think is true.

Also you never knew what a tree was until you saw it as human. When you are born you are just a blank paper and info is stored in your brain later.

But even if you saw something unreal I would still believe it is your mind that created it. Like it creates nightmares etc.


You are free to believe what you want ofc, I am just saying what I think about it.

 

[monebeta2]

I am really sorry if I come across rude, just that English not my first language and I an just trying to help those who all are thinking that it's the end. So kids so young, minor issues they are ready to jump off.

I am not trying to be mesiah, just want to give some idea what's just after. I have taken over 2days in that Airbnb as well, just to go over those moments.

Even I was scared, still messaged that guy bring a gun with rounds in it. But ofcourse that was bullshit, just stupid money hungry souls. I left him good messages, on whats app. Some bustards don't want to work.

 

[ClownWorld2023]

I think it was a mistake of you to rely on someone you barely know.

Your experience sounds horrifying regardless.

 

[Meditation guide]

Brother or sister, if my brain wanted to do this..it should have showed me porn, or beautiful babes to calm me down. But I was else where, with disgusting thing that you don't won't be struck.

So, again that's your View and I know what I saw first that change on view and then myself fighting him to release me.

I Spent my entire money as I was that much ready. Flew to Paris, did Airbnb and made sure and before this day i enjoyed drove a lamborgini, ate fancy restaurant, drank beer, enjoyed trips here over 50k life saving spent.

Emailing that guy give me 20k brother so that I can sort myself out but I know no hope. So, yeah it was a eye opener.

I don't wants to recommend but 2 suicide addicts likes to do, try with full force and no mercy in between but again there has to be a way to tap so that person do release the guy taping.

I even messaged that guy to get me a gun as that will be easy as that guy just flew away.

I believe you. Because I've seen what you describe, the dead trees and awful weather. She was 19 when she died. I really hope she didn't have to stay there that long.
My friend's brother committed suicide. I didn't know that when I channeled him after his death, I had no idea how he died, my friend kept that a secret. He was with his relatives and they were taking care of him, and never let him be alone. He was loved and cared for, that was the message his aunt wanted me to tell his mother.
I don't know if he had ever gone to the dead forest, when I channeled him he had been dead for a few years.

 

[HD72]

I find these fear mongering posts to be tiresome personally, I thought this place was supposed to be a place free from pro-life nonsense. I don't care what you think, I very strongly believe we just cease existing, consciousness is stored in the brain, once we die, that's it for us, we are gone. Only death can bring me relief, it's true relief from the hellish mistake that is existence.

Thank u @FuneralCry . It's always someone who doesn't live in chronic pain. Someone who doesn't live in physical agony. This life is hell. Constant never ending hell. And then people like my parents come along and tell me cuz I want to end my pain I'll be punished more. I can't win. It's people with money or no pain that tell me I have to stay here and suffer here. No matter where I go I suffer. I hate posts like this. Let me have my peace.

 

[Aim]

That does not sound fun! Yiikes. Anyways, I dont know if this is right, but i have heard that right before we die the body realises dmt. And that this will make you halusinate. I have no clue to if this is true sources. But just something i heard..

 

[monebeta2]

Thank u @FuneralCry . It's always someone who doesn't live in chronic pain. Someone who doesn't live in physical agony. This life is hell. Constant never ending hell. And then people like my parents come along and tell me cuz I want to end my pain I'll be punished more. I can't win. It's people with money or no pain that tell me I have to stay here and suffer here. No matter where I go I suffer. I hate posts like this. Let me have my peace. FYI. I had a brain hamerage and used to be UK but this chronic pain is

FYI I had a brain hamerage last Year and been in constant pain on the right side of body. Nothing comes on mri, or all these doctors i have shown. I need a nerve relieving medicine to calm myself. It goes so extreme this pain when weather changes. Its OK when it's summer but changes to extreme condition when it's winter. That made me think of anything just some calming moments.

But OFCOURSE can't be crying all day now mistakes have made. It was covid made me gone case, and gave me this pain.

This nerve pain is extreme, have taken meds from NHS and india only these painkiller works but can't be crying that's why went for this action. As life got bored when you keep thinking it may happen again.

But yeah it's hard when can we do.

 

[HD72]

FYI I had a brain hamerage last Year and been in constant pain on the right side of body. Nothing comes on mri, or all these doctors i have shown. I need a nerve relieving medicine to calm myself. It goes so extreme this pain when weather changes. Its OK when it's summer but changes to extreme condition when it's winter. That made me think of anything just some calming moments.

But OFCOURSE can't be crying all day now mistakes have made. It was covid made me gone case, and gave me this pain.

This nerve pain is extreme, have taken meds from NHS and india only these painkiller works but can't be crying that's why went for this action. As life got bored when you keep thinking it may happen again.

But yeah it's hard when can we do.

Glad u have a med that relieves some of your pain. Some of us don't even have that sadly. Take care.

 

[monebeta2]

Glad u have a med that relieves some of your pain. Some of us don't even have that sadly. Take care.

I Think we get too much responsibilities and alone time where we forget our health and end up like this.

Hopefully if this shit life ever goes away or it start again who knows. We have so many stories, so many versions it's hard to believe.

I will try again to start my life again with good note. But let see when my time comes before I lose my patience and find another way hehe he
Staying last night beautiful place, where people come to spend thousands to wear and showoff wealth... To much disparities in this world, its never been equal neither it will be ever.