Hey man, what happend? Care to elaborate? Im interested im willing to listen.
I feel like this too sometimes, like my CTB will be a kind of revenge thing, a final fuck you to the world, a curse to it.
Also yes there are sadly many arseholes out there who just dont care or are too full of themselves, a few days ago I went to a psych ward voluntarily but they dismissed me, lied to me and broke confidentiality. Talk about confidential and empathetic alright.