Venting Therapy sucks

[autistocracy]

Today was my second session with my therapist after being discharged from a psych hospital last week.

I've been working with her since January of this year. I really like her, but I'm realizing that there's really no point in continuing with therapy. It feels very disappointing because I wanted to give recovery another honest chance,b ut my life circumstances are just bad. Therapy can't really do anything about that. I thought maybe I could learn some coping skills to deal with it, but they're not effective. I've been doing nothing but crying and talking about wanting to die in our sessions the past five weeks; Today being no different.

I feel embarrassed and stupid, and I'm scared she's getting tired of me talking about the same thing over and over. I had to lie and tell her I'd give my medications to a close friend so she wouldn't call 911 on me. It felt patronizing. I know from her perspective, this is her job, and she's required to ensure I'm not going to kill myself. I just hate how belittling it feels to be an adult and be threatened with hospitalization. If I can't talk about my suicidal thoughts, then I'm not sure what else I'm supposed to talk about. I literally cannot afford to go to the hospital again, in both cost and also time away from working.
I feel like I've just been wasting my time trying to do this. Nothing is really working. The therapy, the antidepressants, etc. Disappointing.

 

[FuneralCry]

Ending up in a hospital really sounds so horrible to me, I certainly think that it's best to avoid prisons like that at all costs. To me therapy just sounds like an useless scam, these people only wish to profit from suffering.

 

[Dolphin55]

Today was my second session with my therapist after being discharged from a psych hospital last week.

I've been working with her since January of this year. I really like her, but I'm realizing that there's really no point in continuing with therapy. It feels very disappointing because I wanted to give recovery another honest chance,b ut my life circumstances are just bad. Therapy can't really do anything about that. I thought maybe I could learn some coping skills to deal with it, but they're not effective. I've been doing nothing but crying and talking about wanting to die in our sessions the past five weeks; Today being no different.

I feel embarrassed and stupid, and I'm scared she's getting tired of me talking about the same thing over and over. I had to lie and tell her I'd give my medications to a close friend so she wouldn't call 911 on me. It felt patronizing. I know from her perspective, this is her job, and she's required to ensure I'm not going to kill myself. I just hate how belittling it feels to be an adult and be threatened with hospitalization. If I can't talk about my suicidal thoughts, then I'm not sure what else I'm supposed to talk about. I literally cannot afford to go to the hospital again, in both cost and also time away from working.
I feel like I've just been wasting my time trying to do this. Nothing is really working. The therapy, the antidepressants, etc. Disappointing.

i feel we are really letting mentally ill people down with the quality of therapy they generally receive. If suicidal people cannot talk about their true feelings without threat of hospitalisation *in the one place they're supposed to go to talk about these things* what the hell are we doing?

 

[PanaxMan]

I just was discharged from a hosiptal and I agree with everything you are saying. I am planning to CTB beofre I meet mine.

 

[Rogue Proxy]

i feel we are really letting mentally ill people down with the quality of therapy they generally receive. If suicidal people cannot talk about their true feelings without threat of hospitalisation *in the one place they're supposed to go to talk about these things* what the hell are we doing?

Feeding the egos and bank accounts of mental health enforcers.

 

[ShanaRei]

Oh same. Been doing therapy since Nov. at first it was helpful but now that my life has gone down the shitter it's of no help. She even admitted that there's not much she can do for my circumstances, but talking to someone else sometimes is helpful still.

 

[BGooG]

Playing devils advocate, therapists are required (by law) to take certain steps if they believe certain things based on their conversations with you. This doesn't make them good or bad therapists, it makes them law-abiding and conscientious.

As for whether your therapist is "bored" with you, I doubt that's true. Most therapists who stick it out in their profession have an incredible amount of patience. They are aware that the process to address, and hopefully resolve, psychological issues is extremely slow, laborious, and repetitive. But it's the professional they've chosen.

Bottom line, if you find that you're getting something positive from it, keep going and don't worry about whether the therapist is bored with you. Most of them are professionals. But if it's not working for you, don't be afraid to make a change. Not all therapist-client relationships work, and some that initial work may stop working. Again, it's part of the process.

 

[unnormal9]

I was constantly gaslit.

 

[Lavender Dreams]

Have you considered being open with them and mentioning that the current approach is not quite working for you? Therapists should be flexible and adapt to their patients. Don't be afraid of "being a hassle". That is literally their job, to equip you with the tools required to get out of a dire situation. Granted, not all are competent in this regard an there is little context to go off from, but if you established a good relationship already, it might be worthwhile trying.

 

[SexyIncél]

Playing devils advocate, therapists are required (by law) to take certain steps if they believe certain things based on their conversations with you. This doesn't make them good or bad therapists, it makes them law-abiding and conscientious.

Law-abiding therapists are effectively government spies. Prioritizing politics over our health. I require law-breaking therapists

Ideally, they'd be more than just psychological specialists: general problem solvers, effective at other domains that their clients might need help with. But that's too much to ask. It seems they're supposed to be replaceable cogs

 

[dwindlingfirst]

Today was my second session with my therapist after being discharged from a psych hospital last week.

I've been working with her since January of this year. I really like her, but I'm realizing that there's really no point in continuing with therapy. It feels very disappointing because I wanted to give recovery another honest chance,b ut my life circumstances are just bad. Therapy can't really do anything about that. I thought maybe I could learn some coping skills to deal with it, but they're not effective. I've been doing nothing but crying and talking about wanting to die in our sessions the past five weeks; Today being no different.

I feel embarrassed and stupid, and I'm scared she's getting tired of me talking about the same thing over and over. I had to lie and tell her I'd give my medications to a close friend so she wouldn't call 911 on me. It felt patronizing. I know from her perspective, this is her job, and she's required to ensure I'm not going to kill myself. I just hate how belittling it feels to be an adult and be threatened with hospitalization. If I can't talk about my suicidal thoughts, then I'm not sure what else I'm supposed to talk about. I literally cannot afford to go to the hospital again, in both cost and also time away from working.
I feel like I've just been wasting my time trying to do this. Nothing is really working. The therapy, the antidepressants, etc. Disappointing.

I had a therapist for 2 days. Guy was a creep and tried to get my personal information when I was a minor. I don't trust anyone anymore