user667
Student
- May 11, 2020
- 255
she basically told me i'm selfish and ungrateful. she's not wrong. some of you would probably love to be in my situation. i have two loving parents and access to any therapy/medication/hospitals/mental health resources i need. i'm refusing all of it. i don't want to get better. this world sucks and it will never be worth it. i'm too tired and lazy from years of mental illness to put in any effort to recover. every day hurts more and more. maybe i should take my meds and try in therapy. but i won't. because i want to be dead. more than anything. i wish i could give everything i have to someone who wants and deserves it. save them, not me. i'm ruining my family and draining all their money. and then i'm going to kill myself and destroy them completely. i wish i had never been born. i'm an awful person. i hate myself. i'm sorry.