Therapy session...I’m scared

[piupianissimo]

I know I'm a pussy, but I'm scared to go to my therapy session tomorrow.
There's no way out, my doctor says if I don't show up he'll call the police because he's "worried about me".
I don't even understand why I was so stupid to try to get help in the first place. I now know that I'm a lost cause and can't be helped.
I've tried to cancel my appointments a bunch of times and always gave too much information (suicidal ideations/plans) which caused him to be worried. I'm a fucking idiot.
And now I don't know if I should just tell him how I'm feeling or just make up a bunch of lies indicating full recovery. It's intrinsically hard for me to tell lies, guess it's the way I was brought up. I don't want to continue treatment but I'm afraid he's not going to let me do that.
Any suggestions?

 

[TheGoodGuy]

Remember therapists are not your friends and I don´t understand how they expect a person to open up and be completely honest when there is a punishment involved.

If you can then lie your ass off I get that you don´t like it I don´t either I am an extremely honest person so it feels bad to lie but I learned from an early age that honesty only get you in trouble so my advice trust no one but yourself because you are the only person in this world that want the best for you.

 

[piupianissimo]

Remember therapists are not your friends and I don´t understand how they expect a person to open up and be completely honest when there is a punishment involved.

If you can then lie your ass off I get that you don´t like it I don´t either I am an extremely honest person so it feels bad to lie but I learned from an early age that honesty only get you in trouble so my advice trust no one but yourself because you are the only person in this world that want the best for you.

Yeah makes sense... just have to survive this...

 

[reapandsow918]

Remember therapists are not your friends and I don´t understand how they expect a person to open up and be completely honest when there is a punishment involved.

If you can then lie your ass off I get that you don´t like it I don´t either I am an extremely honest person so it feels bad to lie but I learned from an early age that honesty only get you in trouble so my advice trust no one but yourself because you are the only person in this world that want the best for you.

Amen
I'm in a similar situation as you. It sickens me when authorities use their power to take away your rightfully deserved freedom. It's your business and no one else's

 

[Untitled]

my doctor says if I don't show up he'll call the police because he's "worried about me".

It cracks me up every time to hear a medical/mental professional say they are "worried" or "care" about their suicidal patient. They would call the police on you no problem, but they wouldn't go to a movie or a dinner with you even if you asked them.

 

[Ghosted]

Say all the right things to prove you're okay until you either feel safe with your therapists or until you can walk away. I would advise never discussing suicide with anyone unless you truly want and expect help.

I'm very fortunate that I have a good therapist I can be honest with. She's one in a billion.

 

[piupianissimo]

It cracks me up every time to hear a medical/mental professional say they are "worried" or "care" about their suicidal patient. They would call the police on you no problem, but they wouldn't go to a movie or a dinner with you even if you asked them.

So true...!!!

Say all the right things to prove you're okay until you either feel safe with your therapists or until you can walk away. I would advise never discussing suicide with anyone unless you truly want and expect help.

I'm very fortunate that I have a good therapist I can be honest with. She's one in a billion.

so happy you have a good therapist!!

 

[sleepy dog]

I know I'm a pussy, but I'm scared to go to my therapy session tomorrow.
There's no way out, my doctor says if I don't show up he'll call the police because he's "worried about me".
I don't even understand why I was so stupid to try to get help in the first place. I now know that I'm a lost cause and can't be helped.
I've tried to cancel my appointments a bunch of times and always gave too much information (suicidal ideations/plans) which caused him to be worried. I'm a fucking idiot.
And now I don't know if I should just tell him how I'm feeling or just make up a bunch of lies indicating full recovery. It's intrinsically hard for me to tell lies, guess it's the way I was brought up. I don't want to continue treatment but I'm afraid he's not going to let me do that.
Any suggestions?

You don't have to see a therapist unless there is a court order that forces you to.

 

[Azzy69]

If you are worried just go and get it over with. I know it is not that easy, but there are 24 hours in a day and your therapy session is only 1 hour. stay strong

 

[piupianissimo]

If you are worried just go and get it over with. I know it is not that easy, but there are 24 hours in a day and your therapy session is only 1 hour. stay strong

Thanks, appreciate the support

 

[Taki]

If you find yourself revealing your plans and intentions, you aren't stupid. That was what you wanted to say so respect that. The consequences are difficult and maybe embarrassing, but be open to the idea that maybe you didn't really want to leave.

 

[Moonicide]

I'm slightly honest with them in a sense that I tell them I don't want to exist, but in a passive manner. How I don't have a plan, or am actively thinking of dying. Just going through a rough time / depressed. Usually they just me be as I'm not a danger to myself. Last time they came up with a safety plan for me and asked if I had anyone to call if I felt that way, which I did. So that's what works for me, half truth -- half lie. But like many have people have said here, do try to lie and fake it to the best of your ability. I wish you well.

 

[reapandsow918]

Doctor: "do you have a plan?"
Me: haha dude why would I tell you my secret?

 

[crea_the_hopeless]

Over the past decade I've learned how to lie to medical professionals. You can tell them you have thoughts of leaving, but as long as you don't admit to actively wanting to hurt yourself or having a plan of suicide they can't section you. I've gotten myself out of several hospitalizations by lying and saying that I have no intent on hurting myself, just fleeting thoughts and severe depression. You gotta learn the key things that will have you put up against your will. And those things are usually related to self harm and suicide attempts.