deadwithoutmusic
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- Sep 10, 2020
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I've tried therapy over the last couple of months with two different therapists but I just don't get it. Talking to someone just doesn't work for me, like what are they going to say that I already don't know? I already understand myself and every revelation they have about me I already know and it doesn't help me at all. A couple of hours over months is a drop in the hat in what is required to truly understand a person. Them telling me to do things like have a sleep schedule, exercise, eat healthy. I have never had a great sleeping pattern, I have never been very active and I have never eaten great and now they want me to change all these habbits I've built up over the years while I'm deppressed? That just seems like an impossible task and even if I were to achieve all of this I don't think it will solve anything. Maybe I will have a little more dopamine or serotonin in my brain but I will still feel useless, hopeless, without purpose and want to ctb. Then their last resort is to take pills like a fucking zombie and they don't see a problem with that, and half the studies show (atleast to my knowledge) that medication doesn't work on everyone and even when it does only for the short term until they realise it was all an illusion and nothing has changed for them. "If you're going to kill yourself you might as well try medication" is the response I usually get. Fuck that, I would rather die way before experiencing life like that. I'm also just mad because therapy was a last resort and my last hope and it was just fucking useless.
I should say this was my experience and I'm mainly just venting and it might work for others and you should give it a try if you haven't and I wish you the best of luck that you're not like me. I don't want this to be an anti therapy post and I still think people should seek help and try therapy or atleast give it more of a chance than I did.
I should say this was my experience and I'm mainly just venting and it might work for others and you should give it a try if you haven't and I wish you the best of luck that you're not like me. I don't want this to be an anti therapy post and I still think people should seek help and try therapy or atleast give it more of a chance than I did.