ObssessedEirika
“I’m so damn tired.”
- Jan 7, 2024
- 26
It doesn't help with my surroundings and the people around me. I keep getting blamed by friends that I'm not trying hard enough because I keep saying I wish to die. It's as if they want me to stop being honest and tell them the lie that I'm happy living, even though I'm not. My friends are confused about why I smile whenever I talk about ctb and it's because I genuinely do want to do it. It feels like an escape. I really wished SI didn't interfere with my last attempts. I'm so tired of doing all of this therapy and medication and trying to change just to be told I'm not trying. I'm so tired. I try and try, but whenever I relapse or something, I get told I'm not doing good and that I'm not trying. I just want to them to think for once and acknowledge that I am trying.