permanently tired
it's never enough
- Nov 8, 2023
- 268
I think the world I live in was always the problem, I just didn't realize it earlier. When I was a child I hated the rules that constrained me and it evolved to be my life and eventually the people around me. I can't recall a moment I did not detest the mediocrity we accept as a way of life. There is nothing here for me. I don't want to live a meaningless life, but that's what this is. There is not a singular ideal I'm chasing to fill my void bc there is simply nothing at all. I don't love anyone as a son, a brother, or a friend. As you can imagine, it gets quite lonely yet there is no solace to comfort me. I believe I did once, but when I turn to someone no one understands my thoughts. Why should I continue the relationship then? My help is taken. My time is free. Why are they incapable of doing the same?
I'm incompatible with the world. Where there are expectations, I cannot follow them. Where there are ppl, they're unable to understand me. How can I function if I have to change myself so that I may appease others? There is nowhere for expression or freedom. If I'm only able to be alive in this world then life is a hindrance. It lacks everything.
I'm incompatible with the world. Where there are expectations, I cannot follow them. Where there are ppl, they're unable to understand me. How can I function if I have to change myself so that I may appease others? There is nowhere for expression or freedom. If I'm only able to be alive in this world then life is a hindrance. It lacks everything.
