The will to keep going on becomes harder and harder each day. CTB is the only option.

[MrEUser]

I've been trying my hardest to succeed and no matter how hard I try, I keep failing. A year ago I lost someone close to me and it destroyed me completely. I thought changing myself on the outside would help but deep inside I still feel miserable. I feel like I'm alone, isolated from everyone and everything. Lately I've been studying about NDEs and my whole perception about death has changed. I feel like it's my time to CTB.

I'm not afraid of pain anymore. I'm either going to go out in the cold rain and let hypothermia take it's place or use the charcoal method.

 

[FuneralCry]

It sounds like you've suffered a lot, I hope that you find the freedom you search for.

 

[MrEUser]

Man it's hard. It got to the point where I left a note and a family member found it but thankfully haven't told anyone. I can't do it. Just feels like everything is crumbling down and my only way out is to just end it all.