The wait to die is becoming unbearable

[unnormal9]

Trying to find the CCS source so I can go already. I do not want to stick around any longer.
There aren't any high enough places to jump and I don't want to have to impulse again, but its getting there again. I don't know what to do anymore. I wish I had better methods around me right now. I'll be awake for a long time because i cannot sleep with this debilitating pain anymore.

 

[chr74]

really sorry you are suffering, i and many others here know how rough it gets, you're amongst friends

 

[SilentSadness]

I also wish I had a method, sadly the pro-lifers have done everything they can to ensure we don't have access to peaceful methods. You definitely don't deserve to put up with debilitating pain, and I don't blame you for not wanting to jump. I hope you find relief from your pain.

 

[unnormal9]

I also wish I had a method, sadly the pro-lifers have done everything they can to ensure we don't have access to peaceful methods. You definitely don't deserve to put up with debilitating pain, and I don't blame you for not wanting to jump. I hope you find relief from your pain.

really sorry you are suffering, i and many others here know how rough it gets, you're amongst friends

I'm trying to wait until I can received SN, because I don't want to resort to jumping but it has become increasingly difficult lately.

 

[Letgo]

I am sorry about your pain. You will be on my thoughts.

 

[FuneralCry]

To me, it's so horrible how in this hellish world we cannot just pass away in peace, I hate how suicide is so unnecessarily difficult and complicated for us. But anyway I wish you the best and I hope that you eventually find the freedom that you search for.

 

[unnormal9]

To me, it's so horrible how in this hellish world we cannot just pass away in peace, I hate how suicide is so unnecessarily difficult and complicated for us. But anyway I wish you the best and I hope that you eventually find the freedom that you search for.

Thank you kindly.

 

[letsalllovelain:3]

I'm sorry that you also have to go through this pain. I tried to CBT by hanging year ago and I failed. I wish you the best in having peace and feeling happiness again <3