The wait for SN

[dopaminedeath]

Nothing left to do except countdown the days. So many empty waking hours. Agonising over having to be here still. SN is ordered.
Checked out mentally but don't want to alert anybody. Pretending to live.

 

[je.suis.prêt]

I'm in the same boat, I've been waiting about a week so it should arrive any day now.

I'd like to say that I've checked out too, but a part of me still feels afraid of suicide, but a part of me is really fed up.

All the best

 

[FuneralCry]

I really do understand that it's awful and tiring still being here when all that you wish for is to leave, but at least you have your method soon to be arriving. At least to me, if I knew that I was going to ctb very soon and had a reliable method I would be relieved that all of this will be coming to an end. But I hope that you find the freedom that you wish for.

 

[dopaminedeath]

I'm in the same boat, I've been waiting about a week so it should arrive any day now.

I'd like to say that I've checked out too, but a part of me still feels afraid of suicide, but a part of me is really fed up.

All the best

good luck

I really do understand that it's awful and tiring still being here when all that you wish for is to leave, but at least you have your method soon to be arriving. At least to me, if I knew that I was going to ctb very soon and had a reliable method I would be relieved that all of this will be coming to an end. But I hope that you find the freedom that you wish for.

are u not able to get sn?
it will be a different feeling when the method arrives. look forward to it

 

[FuneralCry]

are u not able to get sn?
it will be a different feeling when the method arrives. look forward to it

If I was able to get my hands on some then I would be nowhere near this site. SN is sadly inaccessible for me.

 

[dopaminedeath]

I'm sorry to hear that I hope things get better, one way or another

If I was able to get my hands on some then I would be nowhere near this site. SN is sadly inaccessible for me.