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busrider
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- Aug 10, 2024
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I lie in my bed now and think that I don't want my family find my body. My original plan was to CTB day before they came from vacation. That way I would have enough time before they arrive and they wouldn't worry about me not answering for a long time, it's just a day. But now I imagine how they will come home, my mother will say "we are home", ask for help with packages, and when I don't answer, she'll come to my room and see me. At first she won't realize. but still one of the symptoms of SN poisoning is cyanosis, and I'll have a blue face. I think she's going to cry, and I'm getting incredibly sad.
I would like to be home in my last moments, in my bed. but now I'm thinking about saying I'm going to sleepover to my friend and getting a hotel room for all of this instead.
I would like to be home in my last moments, in my bed. but now I'm thinking about saying I'm going to sleepover to my friend and getting a hotel room for all of this instead.