Rhaiyne
"To be - or not to be.... That is the question"
- Jul 4, 2021
- 107
Before I go... yes, I'm choosing to leave SS.... I actually wanted to mention some things I have learned while being here.
Suicide and suicide ideation is not new to me at all. Like many people, I come from a very traumatic background. I have spent most of my life blaming my past and everyone who contributed to my pain and devastation.
I came here in the hopes of being with *likeminded* people who had no fear talking about suicide, to connect with people who could completely understand.
There is so much I have learned from being here - things I cannot unlearn, I cannot unsee. I believed this place to be pro choice and I've seen various discussions on this and *prolifers*. What I have come to learn on here is that pro choice is conditional... pro choice only if you speak about death or killing yourself. People who have spoken up about things that didn't resonate with them or spoke up against abuse by some on here to bereaved families were called prolifers and banned. Yes... some of you are concerned about the pain you will leave your family in should you kill yourself... some from here, including mods, have abused those bereaved families... your family may also be targeted. Is that right?? People have bitched about the recovery thread... wow... people chose to try recover, they work hard to try recover yet people moan about its very presence 9n here. Pro choice? Why is there not as much information on choosing life as there is on choosing death. Very one sided.... so not entirely pro choice.
What I have learned... more recently... is that there is a strong undercurrent here of being pro death. People on here talk about those in real life who don't care about them.... there are many on here who don't care about you either and I think we fool ourselves into thinking they do because we want someone to care....
So so many on here have diagnosed mental health issues and/or autism, immediately making them vulnerable. There is not much in the way of possible help... there is no talk of obtaining proper help... except to tell people what NOT to say to their therapist. No one will be able to seek full help unless open, honest and transparent. Yes sometimes our families don't get it... how could they... but you don't know the life experience that someone else may have had... who has recovered.
Some people on here know others who are suicidal and who have children and still there's not real talk to to help that person. Instead they will be wished a safe journey on their way to kill themselves. Some on here will say how they didn't ask to be here etc... that people shouldn't have children for various reasons... that their parents fucked them up... but have no problem in other peoples children to be fucked up... such double standards... we change the context to suit ourselves and that is learnt behaviour. Thats a mass produced mindset!
I've also learned that this website has strong links to - possibly same owners as other sites such as the one for incels. Im sure most have heard about the shooting in Plymouth, England. That chap claimed to be an incel. He killed people including a 3 year old child. People on the incel website- linked to SS were calling him a hero. A hero for gods sake.... what the actual fuck!!!!
I do not want to be associated with a website... calling itself prochoice but actually has people glorifying death and calling those who kill children as a hero. As much as I may loath myself and I'm extremely suicidal - I know, without a doubt, that's not the person I want to be nor do I want to be associated with it and I certainly don't want to die thinking I'm a part of it.
I'm sure this thread will disappear as soon as it's been reported to the mods.. and I will be banned - permanently - which will show that its not really pro choice. Thats what happens... threads are deleted... especially when there's the threat of truth in them.
So, to all those who are in so deep... Im truly sorry for your pain, your struggles, low self worth, thinking that no one else could possibly understand - you are all hugely intelligent... just think a little more about what you read, how people respond. Don't just accept.... I really hope you can find a way to give yourself a chance and choose hope. I'm choosing hope....
Suicide and suicide ideation is not new to me at all. Like many people, I come from a very traumatic background. I have spent most of my life blaming my past and everyone who contributed to my pain and devastation.
I came here in the hopes of being with *likeminded* people who had no fear talking about suicide, to connect with people who could completely understand.
There is so much I have learned from being here - things I cannot unlearn, I cannot unsee. I believed this place to be pro choice and I've seen various discussions on this and *prolifers*. What I have come to learn on here is that pro choice is conditional... pro choice only if you speak about death or killing yourself. People who have spoken up about things that didn't resonate with them or spoke up against abuse by some on here to bereaved families were called prolifers and banned. Yes... some of you are concerned about the pain you will leave your family in should you kill yourself... some from here, including mods, have abused those bereaved families... your family may also be targeted. Is that right?? People have bitched about the recovery thread... wow... people chose to try recover, they work hard to try recover yet people moan about its very presence 9n here. Pro choice? Why is there not as much information on choosing life as there is on choosing death. Very one sided.... so not entirely pro choice.
What I have learned... more recently... is that there is a strong undercurrent here of being pro death. People on here talk about those in real life who don't care about them.... there are many on here who don't care about you either and I think we fool ourselves into thinking they do because we want someone to care....
So so many on here have diagnosed mental health issues and/or autism, immediately making them vulnerable. There is not much in the way of possible help... there is no talk of obtaining proper help... except to tell people what NOT to say to their therapist. No one will be able to seek full help unless open, honest and transparent. Yes sometimes our families don't get it... how could they... but you don't know the life experience that someone else may have had... who has recovered.
Some people on here know others who are suicidal and who have children and still there's not real talk to to help that person. Instead they will be wished a safe journey on their way to kill themselves. Some on here will say how they didn't ask to be here etc... that people shouldn't have children for various reasons... that their parents fucked them up... but have no problem in other peoples children to be fucked up... such double standards... we change the context to suit ourselves and that is learnt behaviour. Thats a mass produced mindset!
I've also learned that this website has strong links to - possibly same owners as other sites such as the one for incels. Im sure most have heard about the shooting in Plymouth, England. That chap claimed to be an incel. He killed people including a 3 year old child. People on the incel website- linked to SS were calling him a hero. A hero for gods sake.... what the actual fuck!!!!
I do not want to be associated with a website... calling itself prochoice but actually has people glorifying death and calling those who kill children as a hero. As much as I may loath myself and I'm extremely suicidal - I know, without a doubt, that's not the person I want to be nor do I want to be associated with it and I certainly don't want to die thinking I'm a part of it.
I'm sure this thread will disappear as soon as it's been reported to the mods.. and I will be banned - permanently - which will show that its not really pro choice. Thats what happens... threads are deleted... especially when there's the threat of truth in them.
So, to all those who are in so deep... Im truly sorry for your pain, your struggles, low self worth, thinking that no one else could possibly understand - you are all hugely intelligent... just think a little more about what you read, how people respond. Don't just accept.... I really hope you can find a way to give yourself a chance and choose hope. I'm choosing hope....
