The thing is, people do move on...

[charlavail]

I keep thinking about "oh well maybe I shouldn't because it'll hurt xyz".
But then I remember someone in my family who died quite young a couple of years ago from a freak accident. And they're fine. Everyone is fine. I remember the day, I remember the funeral. His parents and remaining siblings have a memorial necklace and once a year they talk about him but like that's it. No one is stuck suffering or can't keep living because someone is gone. So then I think, well what's the point? Eventually, my ex who ruined my life and has made me feel even more suicidal than I did before might feel sad and guilty but will move on and date someone else. My family will be sad, but will continue on with their lives. My friends might feel sad or guilty or mad at me, but eventually everyone just goes on with their life.

I just feel like my options are to stay on this earth and keep suffering, or just sleep forever. Why should I keep suffering to please others if eventually they'll forget? Everyone will just forget? They basically forget about me now.

 

[interna]

i agree, but at the same time you also never truly know what's gonna happen .

in a broader sense, i believe imagining the impact of your death, and how reality might be affected by it, is pointless, because you won't get to see it. so why wonder?

 

[Abyss Dweller]

Well I also know about someone who lost their daughter to suicide and the person looks 80 even though they are in their early 50s.
It absolutely ruined them.

 

[charlavail]

i agree, but at the same time you also never truly know what's gonna happen .

in a broader sense, i believe imagining the impact of your death, and how reality might be affected by it, is pointless, because you won't get to see it. so why wonder?

that's true. I guess the imagining is a part of my daily ideation

 

[Mgelanie]

I keep thinking about "oh well maybe I shouldn't because it'll hurt xyz".
But then I remember someone in my family who died quite young a couple of years ago from a freak accident. And they're fine. Everyone is fine. I remember the day, I remember the funeral. His parents and remaining siblings have a memorial necklace and once a year they talk about him but like that's it. No one is stuck suffering or can't keep living because someone is gone. So then I think, well what's the point? Eventually, my ex who ruined my life and has made me feel even more suicidal than I did before might feel sad and guilty but will move on and date someone else. My family will be sad, but will continue on with their lives. My friends might feel sad or guilty or mad at me, but eventually everyone just goes on with their life.

I just feel like my options are to stay on this earth and keep suffering, or just sleep forever. Why should I keep suffering to please others if eventually they'll forget? Everyone will just forget? They basically forget about me now.

Exactly everyone will move on soon or later when my brother died I thought the world had ended but now nobody talks about him everyone acts like he was never even there

 

[hurb]

My mother's brother killed himself. And they act like he never existed.
These people will be fine.