The "quiet, nice and mature" girl is no longer. Taste my Wrath

[Water-Lily]

Maybe it's not the most mature and kind approach. But instead of taking out all of this anger at myself as a shame/trauma response, my family is tasting my wrath

Following the abuse I suffered from my brother a few days ago, I have been fighting non stop with my family

Years of me stuffing down my feelings as the "sensitive good girl" is over

This morning I picked a fight with my grandma as emotions ran high. Accusing her of always siding with my brother. She demanded she never said sided with him, but this is years of resentment coming out. Years of stuffed down feelings of anger and resentment at my family coming out. And I'm having at it

I don't care about the consequences. I don't care about their feelings. Hell this could backfire and they could cut off their support from me

And if they do, it'll give me the strength to take care of myself by myself

I am tired of making excuses for and depending on abusive family who never protected me when I needed it the most

I'm done trusting them. I am done being nice

Hell just like my brother, I'd rather go to a fucking shelter than to ever stay with my grandmother

In the end my grandma insisted I needed help and have an attitude problem and therapy clearly isn't working

No, it is working. Because I am finally expressing my true pent up emotions, and cannot be expected to function in abuse

I am done. Done with all of them

 

[angeliccry]

i am sorry you're going through all of this, i really am. i hope you find the time to try and take care of yourself, you shouldn't feel any sort of guilt for letting it out, it's justified, at least in my eyes. i would suggest focusing on doing whatever you can to limit damage to yourself and provide time to heal and rest, i hope all of this stops soon and you get to feel at peace. if you need anybody to speak to, my dms are always open, good luck. :(

 

[Water-Lily]

i am sorry you're going through all of this, i really am. i hope you find the time to try and take care of yourself, you shouldn't feel any sort of guilt for letting it out, it's justified, at least in my eyes. i would suggest focusing on doing whatever you can to limit damage to yourself and provide time to heal and rest, i hope all of this stops soon and you get to feel at peace. if you need anybody to speak to, my dms are always open, good luck. :(

Thank you love. And im trying. I have no idea what the hell im gonna do, but I will be ok. My family cannot be trusted and im done having grace and kindness for them

 

[trashprincess]

No, it is working. Because I am finally expressing my true pent up emotions, and cannot be expected to function in abuse

I am done. Done with all of them

Absolutely! You deserve better than all of that Part of maturity is the ability to stand up for yourself, and there's nothing nice about letting abusers have their way. Best of luck getting away