exhausteduntreatable
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- Oct 8, 2021
- 80
I would like to hear others thoughts on this.
I am leaning towards SN, even though it doesn't sound that pleasant and seems somewhat difficult to procure in Canada. Being in the high 70 pound range (as long as I can avoid medical intervention) with very low bp and heart rate seems like it would facilitate this method.
I don't want to ctb at home even though it would be pretty perfect. I work nights and my dad works days. I would have all of the hours he is at work to do myself in but I don't want him to be the one to find my body.
A nice hotel would be ideal but I don't want the cleaning fee to clear out the savings I am leaving for my dad and probably make him pay additional out of pocket as well. I thought about doing it at work when I have the entire department to myself overnight. In the locked bathroom possibly. There is the possibility of interference there though by other staff in the building. So I thought I could leave shortly after the shift starts and do it outside, fairly close by, in a place with some cover. The possibility of discovery is there as well though. And there is the weather problem. Our winters are freezing. Up to -50. That could help me along or make me back out potentially if it doesn't happen smoothly. Waiting until after Christmas is already a big strain. Things don't begin to defrost for a long time. Or I could say to hell with all this and jump from one of our bridges.
I am leaning towards SN, even though it doesn't sound that pleasant and seems somewhat difficult to procure in Canada. Being in the high 70 pound range (as long as I can avoid medical intervention) with very low bp and heart rate seems like it would facilitate this method.
I don't want to ctb at home even though it would be pretty perfect. I work nights and my dad works days. I would have all of the hours he is at work to do myself in but I don't want him to be the one to find my body.
A nice hotel would be ideal but I don't want the cleaning fee to clear out the savings I am leaving for my dad and probably make him pay additional out of pocket as well. I thought about doing it at work when I have the entire department to myself overnight. In the locked bathroom possibly. There is the possibility of interference there though by other staff in the building. So I thought I could leave shortly after the shift starts and do it outside, fairly close by, in a place with some cover. The possibility of discovery is there as well though. And there is the weather problem. Our winters are freezing. Up to -50. That could help me along or make me back out potentially if it doesn't happen smoothly. Waiting until after Christmas is already a big strain. Things don't begin to defrost for a long time. Or I could say to hell with all this and jump from one of our bridges.