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Hecuba
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- Dec 24, 2021
- 12
I feel like I am in an impossible situation. The person I love and care for the most in this world is also the person whose future decisions are going to influence whether or not I CTB. Now, I am ok with that, I don't want to put any pressure on them or have their decision changed solely because of how they would affect me. CTB'ing would be my choice and I wouldn't put the blame on them. However, even without anything said, without any notes, they would know they were the reason if I ended up CTB'ing. That has made me feel like I should endure the misery and suffering, if it gets to it, because I don't want them to have to live with my death on their consciousness. I love them and I don't want to destroy their life, but I don't think I am capable of being selfless enough to endure misery just to avoid hurting them. I don't know what to do.