The only thing that makes me feel better

[RacilyDank]

Is the thought of being dead.

Tonight I got drunk. Couldn't tolerate being around people. Felt so tired all I wanted to do was go home and commit suicide. Then when I was adamant I was going to do it, felt better. To the point I can't do it.

My life is pure torture 24/7 and as soon as I feel like I can do the only thing out of it, I can't do it. What the fuck is wrong with me?!!!

 

[RacilyDank]

I feel numb, like all the feelings and things pushing me to do what I want I'm not capable of feeling all of a sudden and it's driving me fucking mad

 

[whatmattersmost]

Is the thought of being dead.

Tonight I got drunk. Couldn't tolerate being around people. Felt so tired all I wanted to do was go home and commit suicide. Then when I was adamant I was going to do it, felt better. To the point I can't do it.

My life is pure torture 24/7 and as soon as I feel like I can do the only thing out of it, I can't do it. What the fuck is wrong with me?!!!

Why is your life torture 24/7

 

[RacilyDank]

Depression. I got my life back together, got an awesome job doing what I love, got well and got together with the person I love most in my life.

One by one all of those things vanished. My anxiety (which always snowballs into depression) came back, rendering me unable to perform at work and enjoy my job, the person I love ended our relationship, pushing me further down this path, then I lost my job because of it. Now the person I love won't even be there for me as a friend and I'm left depressed, jobless and unable to pay the rent without my best friend and all day every day all I can think about is this shitstorm of a situation and it's killing me.

 

[whatmattersmost]

Depression. I got my life back together, got an awesome job doing what I love, got well and got together with the person I love most in my life.

One by one all of those things vanished. My anxiety (which always snowballs into depression) came back, rendering me unable to perform at work and enjoy my job, the person I love ended our relationship, pushing me further down this path, then I lost my job because of it. Now the person I love won't even be there for me as a friend and I'm left depressed, jobless and unable to pay the rent without my best friend and all day every day all I can think about is this shitstorm of a situation and it's killing me.

I've gone through this several times.
I can't put the peices back together this time.
Ask yourself, Do you have the Mental/Physical strength to put your peices back together!?
GoodLuck

 

[whatmattersmost]

My Anxiety/Depression has always been like a ticking Time bomb that Sabotage's anything Good in my life.
Life is already Hard enough so self Sabotaging Myself should be the least of My worries

 

[RacilyDank]

I've gone through this several times.
I can't put the peices back together this time.
Ask yourself, Do you have the Mental/Physical strength to put your peices back together!?
GoodLuck

No, I don't have any of the mental or physical strength to put the pieces back together. And that's why I'm here

 

[RacilyDank]

My Anxiety/Depression has always been like a ticking Time bomb that Sabotage's anything Good in my life.
Life is already Hard enough so self Sabotaging Myself should be the least of My worries

If it's any consolation I know how you feel. No matter how good I feel in between, it's destined to fuck everything up for me

 

[whatmattersmost]

No, I don't have any of the mental or physical strength to put the pieces back together. And that's why I'm here

Same here.
I caught My Ex cheating, that killed the last bit of Self confidence I had.
That's Not why I'm here but that was the tipping point on top of everything else

 

[RacilyDank]

If I have to wake up one more day I'm going to literally lose my shit.

As much as I feel better right now for making the decision it's not enough. It'll ultimately result in waking up tomorrow wishing I'd done it

 

[RacilyDank]

Same here.
I caught My Ex cheating, that killed the last bit of Self confidence I had.
That's Not why I'm here but that was the tipping point on top of everything else

Same. It wasn't why I felt suicidal in the first place but it's definitely given me the impetus to go and do it