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Daystavro
Experienced
- Oct 15, 2018
- 269
I am 26 male and I am planning on ctb in a few months , sometime in February 2019, because I have no financial future or social (no gf) future because of my social anxiety.
The only thing that pinches my heart a little is that I won't get to see or experience the technological advancements of the coming decades - the 2020's, 2030's, 2040's, 2050's and so on.
I mean imagine a dude my age , 26 , who ctb in say 1990 , he didn't get to see or experience the internet or smartphones and so on.
But to be honest, if I'll continue living what awaits me is a life of poverty so I won't be able to afford any of the new and cool technologies that will be developed.
So in a sense it will be worst.
Because I will know about all these cool technologies but won't be able to buy and use them.
I'll be like a guy who sees a very cute women on the street and he knows he can't be with her ( happens to me all the time).
And seeing how the world is becoming shittier and shittier and more violent by the day , yes I won't get to see those technological advancements but I won't experience any disasters or horrible things that might happen.
Take the same guy who ctb in 1990, yeah he didn't get to see the iphone or the internet but he also didn't hear about the horrors of 9/11 or isis or mass shootings and all that.
And seeing humanity right now I feel like there are going to be many more disasters and horrors in the following decades.
And are these cool gadgets and products make us any happier?
It seems the internet and smartphones only made us more depressed and socially isolated.
You walk outside today and nobody is talking or looking at eachother , everyone are glued to the smartphone like a zombie.
So, all in all, I am determined to ctb, and while I might miss some stuff, I am content with that decison and believe it will allow me to end my mental suffering.
The only thing that pinches my heart a little is that I won't get to see or experience the technological advancements of the coming decades - the 2020's, 2030's, 2040's, 2050's and so on.
I mean imagine a dude my age , 26 , who ctb in say 1990 , he didn't get to see or experience the internet or smartphones and so on.
But to be honest, if I'll continue living what awaits me is a life of poverty so I won't be able to afford any of the new and cool technologies that will be developed.
So in a sense it will be worst.
Because I will know about all these cool technologies but won't be able to buy and use them.
I'll be like a guy who sees a very cute women on the street and he knows he can't be with her ( happens to me all the time).
And seeing how the world is becoming shittier and shittier and more violent by the day , yes I won't get to see those technological advancements but I won't experience any disasters or horrible things that might happen.
Take the same guy who ctb in 1990, yeah he didn't get to see the iphone or the internet but he also didn't hear about the horrors of 9/11 or isis or mass shootings and all that.
And seeing humanity right now I feel like there are going to be many more disasters and horrors in the following decades.
And are these cool gadgets and products make us any happier?
It seems the internet and smartphones only made us more depressed and socially isolated.
You walk outside today and nobody is talking or looking at eachother , everyone are glued to the smartphone like a zombie.
So, all in all, I am determined to ctb, and while I might miss some stuff, I am content with that decison and believe it will allow me to end my mental suffering.