joshe
Wanderer
- Jun 1, 2019
- 112
I have tried fully isolating, spending time reading books and such, yet one can never really fully isolate, still need to go to the shops, handle bills etc
Me being adverse to human contact is what makes me want to ctb, so I want have to worry about all of this anymore, yet when I try to be by myself, nothing matters and there is no stimulation.
Either I have to be able to live with myself in a low stimulating environment, or I have to deal with people and risk having another breakdown.
What i mean is, socialising is key to getting me out of my head, but I cannot get along with people and constantly feel like an outsider, which furthers my wish to ctb. Yes I have tried many different hobbies, communities, jobs etc.. Yes maybe it's me that's the problem.
Me being adverse to human contact is what makes me want to ctb, so I want have to worry about all of this anymore, yet when I try to be by myself, nothing matters and there is no stimulation.
Either I have to be able to live with myself in a low stimulating environment, or I have to deal with people and risk having another breakdown.
What i mean is, socialising is key to getting me out of my head, but I cannot get along with people and constantly feel like an outsider, which furthers my wish to ctb. Yes I have tried many different hobbies, communities, jobs etc.. Yes maybe it's me that's the problem.
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