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Dewdmael
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- Apr 4, 2020
- 16
I think one of the biggest problem I have with ending this bullshit is that I have no idea what is next.
I've read the vedas and they seem to think they if you have attachments in this world and you haven't done any great deeds then you end up going "down" into a lower kind of existence. It would would suck to go through the trouble of killing myself just to wake up into the body of a feral cat.
Personally, I've lost hope in the existence of a benevolent guy in heaven who actually gives a shit about his children. If there is anything, I imagine its just a place of concentrated emotion. According to the Vedas, I don't seem to have done what it takes to obtain it, which depresses me so much more.a
And finally, the idea that maybe I'll wake up in hell in deep regret for not trying to wait a little longer.
I am in torment about this and wish for comfort.
I've read the vedas and they seem to think they if you have attachments in this world and you haven't done any great deeds then you end up going "down" into a lower kind of existence. It would would suck to go through the trouble of killing myself just to wake up into the body of a feral cat.
Personally, I've lost hope in the existence of a benevolent guy in heaven who actually gives a shit about his children. If there is anything, I imagine its just a place of concentrated emotion. According to the Vedas, I don't seem to have done what it takes to obtain it, which depresses me so much more.a
And finally, the idea that maybe I'll wake up in hell in deep regret for not trying to wait a little longer.
I am in torment about this and wish for comfort.