Ghostlights
Member
- Mar 21, 2026
- 20
Today was my last day of school... it could have been four years earlier and I could be working full time now, but I wasn't allowed to have an opinion when my parents chose which type of school I should go to. So now I'm here, about to fail my finals, four years of my life wasted, still stuck in this toxic household.
I used to be good at school, but over the years my mental health got worse and so did my grades. I didn't do anything in class since 2024 when my best friend ctb, but somehow I still passed. In the middle of April, I'll have my first exam (in history major class) and I know nothing. The chances that I'll learn everything we did for the last two years are very slim.
For years I thought I'd be happy on my very last day of school, but now I'm just sitting in my room and crying my eyes out, because I failed as a best friend, as a child to my parents and as a student. I'm too exhausted to study, nothing stays in my head!
On Wednesday I had a talk with a teacher and I told her, that I'll probably not manage to study for my finals... she advised me to at least try to pass. Somehow she thinks I'm smart enough and my history teacher said he thinks I could get an A in my finals (even though I rarely participated in his class), but they don't know they don't know how difficult it has been for me to do basic things like getting out of bed, eating, brushing my teeth, etc. I'm tired of this shit! I'm considering to not even attempt to write something down in my final exams.
I used to be good at school, but over the years my mental health got worse and so did my grades. I didn't do anything in class since 2024 when my best friend ctb, but somehow I still passed. In the middle of April, I'll have my first exam (in history major class) and I know nothing. The chances that I'll learn everything we did for the last two years are very slim.
For years I thought I'd be happy on my very last day of school, but now I'm just sitting in my room and crying my eyes out, because I failed as a best friend, as a child to my parents and as a student. I'm too exhausted to study, nothing stays in my head!
On Wednesday I had a talk with a teacher and I told her, that I'll probably not manage to study for my finals... she advised me to at least try to pass. Somehow she thinks I'm smart enough and my history teacher said he thinks I could get an A in my finals (even though I rarely participated in his class), but they don't know they don't know how difficult it has been for me to do basic things like getting out of bed, eating, brushing my teeth, etc. I'm tired of this shit! I'm considering to not even attempt to write something down in my final exams.
