Venting The impossibility of a depressed person to have a decent life in this system:

[Lra888]

I feel completely sickened by life from the moment I wake up. The endless daily routine, the irritating things I have to do to maintain any decency in my life, the threat of poverty and homelessness this society allows if one is not fit to work. I have no ambition to be a mindless "go getter" for a supervisor/boss/manager. I find it strange that people get such happiness in slaving away for 60 years, wearing themselves down until they are too weakened to work anymore and must retire (die because useless to employers). The immense pointlessness of this, the pain it puts everyone through, the alienation being surrounded by happy screaming laughing enthusiastic people who absolutely love it. I cannot ever picture myself happy in this society. Doctors try to find the right combination of meds to make me feel okay in this madness.

 

[Threads]

i say this all the time

If human suffering is profitable, under capitalism we're going to suffer immensely.

We were born in the wrong time.

 

[throwaway777]

i dont even know if depression is a real thing anymore … what you said feels so normal to me .. anyway idk what i am saying .. sorry if it offends anyone ..

 

[Lost1234]

I feel completely sickened by life from the moment I wake up. The endless daily routine, the irritating things I have to do to maintain any decency in my life, the threat of poverty and homelessness this society allows if one is not fit to work. I have no ambition to be a mindless "go getter" for a supervisor/boss/manager. I find it strange that people get such happiness in slaving away for 60 years, wearing themselves down until they are too weakened to work anymore and must retire (die because useless to employers). The immense pointlessness of this, the pain it puts everyone through, the alienation being surrounded by happy screaming laughing enthusiastic people who absolutely love it. I cannot ever picture myself happy in this society. Doctors try to find the right combination of meds to make me feel okay in this madness.

I feel this a lot..... :/

 

[oldgray]

we aren't the ill ones
edit: realized what i wrote could be misunderstood, i mean when it comes to this fucked up system

 

[Lra888]

And there is no alternative to this. Homelessness or total poverty perhaps? Hospitalization? There really is nowhere to go.

 

[Lra888]

i dont even know if depression is a real thing anymore … what you said feels so normal to me .. anyway idk what i am saying .. sorry if it offends anyone ..

Yes. It's shocking to me how people seem to love this system. Getting enthusiastic about purchasing fashionable work cloths, competing with coworkers for boss's approval, and the entire TV, movie, video game industry that keeps people happy in their box.

 

[oldgray]

Yes. It's shocking to me how people seem to love this system. Getting enthusiastic about purchasing fashionable work cloths, competing with coworkers for boss's approval, and the entire TV, movie, video game industry that keeps people happy in their box.

most people don't like it either, they just have good things in life that make it worth to get used to it (at least for them).
or they are just brainwashed, you know, the usual "that's how life is, you gotta do things even if you don't like them, ecc."

 

[Schopenhauer]

I feel completely sickened by life from the moment I wake up. The endless daily routine, the irritating things I have to do to maintain any decency in my life, the threat of poverty and homelessness this society allows if one is not fit to work. I have no ambition to be a mindless "go getter" for a supervisor/boss/manager. I find it strange that people get such happiness in slaving away for 60 years, wearing themselves down until they are too weakened to work anymore and must retire (die because useless to employers). The immense pointlessness of this, the pain it puts everyone through, the alienation being surrounded by happy screaming laughing enthusiastic people who absolutely love it. I cannot ever picture myself happy in this society. Doctors try to find the right combination of meds to make me feel okay in this madness.

My father worked 55 years of his life, usually for nearly twelve hours a day, for a meager salary. He believed it was his "duty". The only thing it got him was a heart attack, and now that he's retired he has no personal interest in anything (other than pointless debates about politics).

Life is crap.

 

[Lra888]

My father worked 55 years of his life, usually for nearly twelve hours a day, for a meager salary. He believed it was his "duty". The only thing it got him was a heart attack, and now that he's retired he has no personal interest in anything (other than pointless debates about politics).

Life is crap.

My father completely ran himself into the ground at a shitty middle salary job at an insurance company for 40+ years. I remember him always being angry, depressed and stressed out. After retirement he sunk into a horrible depression. Now he's medicated with SSRI and watches TV all day.

 

[Maravillosa]

And there is no alternative to this. Homelessness or total poverty perhaps? Hospitalization? There really is nowhere to go.

The only viable alternatives seem to me a) to be independently wealthy, so that one does not need to debase oneself while working for a living or b) ctb.

 

[Lra888]

And I have to manage all of this while mentally ill/major depression/anxiety. Not possible for me to make it through this. Hospitalization is not an option - I would lose my living situation and job. I have to die.

 

[Lra888]

The only viable alternatives seem to me a) to be independently wealthy, so that one does not need to debase oneself while working for a living or b) ctb.

I choose b) ctb

I'm not wealthy and will probably never be. I have very bad mental illness which doesn't seem to be treatable and I'm so exhausted taking shitty meds that either don't work, cause horrible side effects, lose their effectiveness or c)all of the above

 

[NoOneKnows]

I like this quote

 

[Weeping Garbage Can]

I feel completely sickened by life from the moment I wake up. The endless daily routine, the irritating things I have to do to maintain any decency in my life, the threat of poverty and homelessness this society allows if one is not fit to work. I have no ambition to be a mindless "go getter" for a supervisor/boss/manager. I find it strange that people get such happiness in slaving away for 60 years, wearing themselves down until they are too weakened to work anymore and must retire (die because useless to employers). The immense pointlessness of this, the pain it puts everyone through, the alienation being surrounded by happy screaming laughing enthusiastic people who absolutely love it. I cannot ever picture myself happy in this society. Doctors try to find the right combination of meds to make me feel okay in this madness.

I feel completely sickened by life from the moment I wake up. The endless daily routine, the irritating things I have to do to maintain any decency in my life, the threat of poverty and homelessness this society allows if one is not fit to work. I have no ambition to be a mindless "go getter" for a supervisor/boss/manager. I find it strange that people get such happiness in slaving away for 60 years, wearing themselves down until they are too weakened to work anymore and must retire (die because useless to employers). The immense pointlessness of this, the pain it puts everyone through, the alienation being surrounded by happy screaming laughing enthusiastic people who absolutely love it. I cannot ever picture myself happy in this society. Doctors try to find the right combination of meds to make me feel okay in this madness.

I've thought the exact same things for years, but could never put it as eloquently as you. What makes me extremely sad is how for the benefit of one agenda, many other sentient beings are hurt :( or controlled. I wish there was another way, where bodies weren't so restrictive or there was more than enough resources for everyone, so competition could lessen. So innocents don't have to suffer under other's beliefs. But it all seems pointless...however i do wish there was a way for medical induced euthanasia so at least people could have a safe way of leaving.