
Desdemona
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- Oct 14, 2020
- 88
I think about this often. I grew up somewhat religious and I still don't know where I stand. Part of me wants to believe there's a meaning to this all but chronic illness and pain for the last two years has turned my life upside down. Life lost that magic feeling it had and I've realized we're nothing but animals that are slightly more intelligent than those we trap in zoos so we attribute "meaning" to things when in reality the meaning of life is to stay healthy for as long as you can, reproduce, and take care of your kids until they can take care of themselves.
i know that most religions teach us that CTB is bad, but really where do we draw the line. Is it only sinful if you make the decision to do it? If you die of an OD but don't intend to, do you still go to hell? If you go sky diving and the parachute doesn't open is it your fault for going in the first place? If you develop some horrible chronic pain condition and don't wanna be alive, is that your fault too?
i honestly don't want to die but I'm disgusted with life and what a joke it is for me
i know that most religions teach us that CTB is bad, but really where do we draw the line. Is it only sinful if you make the decision to do it? If you die of an OD but don't intend to, do you still go to hell? If you go sky diving and the parachute doesn't open is it your fault for going in the first place? If you develop some horrible chronic pain condition and don't wanna be alive, is that your fault too?
i honestly don't want to die but I'm disgusted with life and what a joke it is for me