Is to kill myself. I just know, can tell how strong I need to be to carry it out, and as much as I want to die I don't think I'm strong enough to see it through with the means and methods available to me. All I can feel is my pain knocking me to the ground and my meds numbing me into distraction. I can't think of or see a way out, all I've got is a lifetime of pain and memories and not much of a clear outlet or way out. Only got so much energy and health to attempt as well, don't know if I've got much of a window. I just need to see a way out, the meds will only numb me for so long before I do something impulsive.
I have been beaten down too hard. I cannot live, just feel beaten down and completely paralysed out of life. It's all gone wrong and I can't think straight, the more I wander and run around the more I get beaten down. Can't stop being beaten down.
I have been beaten down too hard. I cannot live, just feel beaten down and completely paralysed out of life. It's all gone wrong and I can't think straight, the more I wander and run around the more I get beaten down. Can't stop being beaten down.
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