Venting The guilt

[SHThrowAway213]

I keep getting unbearable guilt about leaving my husband, especially around Christmas time.
I'm going to try to hang myself tommorow, and I have SN on the way in case that fails.
But I just keep getting this feeling of unbearable guilt.
I don't know how to stop it, but I can't keep living like this

 

[Hadenuf]

I keep getting unbearable guilt about leaving my husband, especially around Christmas time.
I'm going to try to hang myself tommorow, and I have SN on the way in case that fails.
But I just keep getting this feeling of unbearable guilt.
I don't know how to stop it, but I can't keep living like this

Same problem leaving my wife

 

[SHThrowAway213]

Same problem leaving my wife

He's got depression too so I'm a bit worried about what's going to happen to him too
But my suicidal feelings are relentless and I've had enough but I don't want to cause him any pain

 

[Hadenuf]

He's got depression too so I'm a bit worried about what's going to happen to him too
But my suicidal feelings are relentless and I've had enough but I don't want to cause him any pain

Same constant feelings

 

[takeyourshotfunboy]

I feel the same way, but with my parents. They both have depression, my dad has said he couldn´t go on if I CTB...but God I can´t fucking do this anymore.

 

[AnxiouslyDepressed]

I feel the same way, but with my parents. They both have depression, my dad has said he couldn´t go on if I CTB...but God I can´t fucking do this anymore.

same boat, fucking killing me (no pun intended)

 

[Isittimetogonola]

Same here. My dad is not in good health and has been waiting to die for the past 20 yrs. By my leaving, it will probably kill him or my POS brother will need to step up. My mom passed away unexpectedly and I have never had the time to even grieve for her as I became his primary caregiver. My mother-in-law will take care of my wife. My closest friend circle grieve but I have always felt I am a burden to them. They say otherwise but feel if I have absolutely nothing more to offer them. They all deserve so much better. So there is a good amount of guilt which may be also being born catholic. I am just so tired of trying this thing called life. I used to feel to not do it as all the people I hate would win. I just don't care anymore.