Discussion The great trial awaits

[Menschenmühle]

the preparations, the deliberation, the fantasies... All these excite me to no end. I sometimes find myself wondering if I'm more into the process of dying rather than the destination itself. What does the end goal matter anyways? There's no way I can know what happens after death. So what remains is a feeling of longing to fade away, to quit the world in its entirety. It's not death that I desire but life that I want to escape. I hope that makes sense.

 

[FuneralCry]

To me it's certainly understandable wishing to finally escape from everything, I wish you the best with your plans.

 

[saddestbunny]

the preparations, the deliberation, the fantasies... All these excite me to no end. I sometimes find myself wondering if I'm more into the process of dying rather than the destination itself. What does the end goal matter anyways? There's no way I can know what happens after death. So what remains is a feeling of longing to fade away, to quit the world in its entirety. It's not death that I desire but life that I want to escape. I hope that makes sense.

makes sense. i think our brains are enamored with the possibility of peace. it's amusing to me how so many parts of humanity's biology has to agree in order for everything to work "right", I'm not sure how my mind can want to die so badly but my body attempts to keep me alive with everything it does. I hope you find your peace