Venting The future...

[PurpleDeranged]

So I'm approaching my mid 30s and I'm disabled, chronic illnesses that slowly take my energy from me and my ability to do every day tasks.

I've always wanted to CTB and have constant ideation. The thing is I want to do it because I can't cope, I know that I have people around me that would be deeply saddened if I were to attempt or succeed (another reason I haven't tried, what if I do it wrong and end up worse off)
I think about my partner, my mum, my friends and I stay even though it feels like my very existence is agony. My future looks incredibly bleak, especially with the UK becoming hostile towards us disabled folks.

I just needed to get these thoughts out of my head and you guys can actually understand it.

 

[R. A.]

Lots of people here for similar or the same reasons, yours truly included. life as a disabled/CI person would be hard enough without the overt and covert eugenic bullshit of a society that hates us and social institutions designed to oppress, repress, and kill us.

i hope this place can be one of solace for you.

 

[FuneralCry]

It sounds like you've suffered so much, it really is so cruel to me how there's all this pain and suffering in existing, I understand having so much dread for what lies ahead but anyway I wish you the best.