Venting the final straw

[c0rps3_l1k3]

i just want to die. my last post on this website was about my long term girlfriend and she just hurt me so bad. I really have no reason to stay anymore.

she cheated on me (for the third time!!) and is now basically asking for emotional support from me because i tried to break up with her. (she threatened and guilted me me when i tried to leave her over this incident, so i stayed). i have no reason to live at this point. its just pain. ive never loved someone this much and ive done so much for her (stayed after she cheated) but she still let me down. she's absolutely breaking my heart. she also lied to me about her age for a year, im 18 and shes 25 but she told me she was my age when we met.

im planning to ctb within the month because i just cannot handle this. i just dont know how to cope in the meantime. i love her so fucking much but she's hurting me so so bad. i just need someone to talk to rn but she doesnt care enough to comfort me even after she's hurt me so bad. i love her but i also feel such rage rn. life sucks and theres no point. no good people, no joy, no safety.

there are no real adults. no one can be trusted. life will always be this way. :/

 

[Another Path]

There are a lot of people you cannot be happy with, and it is not your responsibility to fix them.
I'm also a very forgiving loving and loyal person, and my ex hurt me a lot over the years. At the time I thought she was the only thing keeping me alive, but here I am 4 years after the breakup, and the memory of her doesn't tear me to shreds anymore.
The people on this website all know great suffering, and have nothing but compassion for your.
I don't want you to ctb, because you are forgiving, kind, and loving, and many people in this world need someone like you.
Not your ex though, she does not deserve what you give to her, and she must notice your incredible pain. How does she react? How would you react if she felt this hurt?
I know you love her unconditionally, but there is a good person out there who actually deserves your love, and who will return this kind of love to you.

 

[c0rps3_l1k3]

There are a lot of people you cannot be happy with, and it is not your responsibility to fix them.
I'm also a very forgiving loving and loyal person, and my ex hurt me a lot over the years. At the time I thought she was the only thing keeping me alive, but here I am 4 years after the breakup, and the memory of her doesn't tear me to shreds anymore.
The people on this website all know great suffering, and have nothing but compassion for your.
I don't want you to ctb, because you are forgiving, kind, and loving, and many people in this world need someone like you.
Not your ex though, she does not deserve what you give to her, and she must notice your incredible pain. How does she react? How would you react if she felt this hurt?
I know you love her unconditionally, but there is a good person out there who actually deserves your love, and who will return this kind of love to you.

youre right. im literally comforting her rn and she hasnt even asked me how im doing despite everything. im always here for her but she never does anything for me. its just so hard to end things after so long. im just really struggling to figure out how to leave because she always manipulates me into coming back and it works because i love her to bits.

im so glad someone else understands being so attached to someone and cares. this really brightened up my day, stranger. tysm