You're not alone my friend.
If you can take one more day, maybe you can still stand up.
I used to hate when I wake up,..... without thinking..... nowdays... like some weeks, that feeling stopped. Still stroggle a lot during the day.
Be sure about SN... i didnt know such thing exists and was easy accessible (at least for me),... looking at it... feels like we have a way out right?
Wish you something good.... can be a simple thing, we need a little relief.