Venting The Experience of Mediocrity

[UserFromNowhere]

We are told from birth that if we aspire, merely aspire, we can achieve whatever we set our minds to. We set our sights on horizons untold, the future promising limitless opportunity and improvement. We work and work to try and achieve, we put everything we have into honing our art, to "get better" at some skill. But sooner or later, we run into the great limiter, our inherent limitations, the maximal extent of our ability to improve. We're told it's just a "plateau" we'll get over sooner or later. With hope undaunted, we try and try to continue climbing that mountain. We reconceptualize our thinking, take breaks of substance to let our mind work through the details, insistent on the belief that if we just keep pursuing that end we'll be able to overcome the hurdles. But it becomes a fruitless endeavor. No matter how hard we try, no matter how much of ourselves we dedicate to the delusion, we've hit an area where we can't keep climbing. An area where the mountain ceases to have any path up, regardless of the tools we use, regardless of the insights we gained. We become stuck at this ledge, unable to progress, where the only way out becomes jumping off the cliff and into the abyss.

 

[meddle]

yes. everyone has their limits. no matter how hard you try, you cant overpass it. and most people will be mediocre in their achivements. i suffer from that too i want to be someone so badly, to create something worthy. but im just a regular human

 

[UserFromNowhere]

yes. everyone has their limits. no matter how hard you try, you cant overpass it. and most people will be mediocre in their achivements. i suffer from that too i want to be someone so badly, to create something worthy. but im just a regular human

It is truly a curse. I, personally, have anhodenia due to the inability to derive joy from any of these activities as I gradually realize I'll never improve from that pinnacle of mediocrity. Not asking for anything legendary, not asking to make a mark on this world, just to see some iota of improvement. And yet, I never do, I just find myself stuck in the old ways I've persisted in for so long. No advancement, just an unnoticeable stain in these aspects of life.

 

[itsgone2]

I, personally, have anhodenia due to the inability to derive joy from any of these activities as I gradually realize I'll never improve from that pinnacle of mediocrity.

Well said. Yeah Im capped out but the world keeps getting more complicated. And none of it brings any joy. I'm so done.

 

[meddle]

It is truly a curse. I, personally, have anhodenia due to the inability to derive joy from any of these activities as I gradually realize I'll never improve from that pinnacle of mediocrity. Not asking for anything legendary, not asking to make a mark on this world, just to see some iota of improvement. And yet, I never do, I just find myself stuck in the old ways I've persisted in for so long. No advancement, just an unnoticeable stain in these aspects of life.

yes, yes i dont aspire to be like the greatest of all time. i just want to be good at something just good idk, maybe its impostor syndrome?