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- Jan 27, 2020
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Plus understandably creep people out
It would be easier to avoid the creepiness aspect of it in a car vs. a van but that's also way harder to live in
The funny thing is it seems like the appearance of the vehicle you use makes a ton of difference
I've seen some vans that essentially look like scaled-down RVs and I feel like people would be way more comfortable with that
If you could get a phone with unlimited data your boredom is over
For me the uncertainty of any moment of the lifestyle would be the worst though, whether from the law or from (other) vagrants or from pissed locals
It wouldn't be so bad if you had some quality suicide method with you at all times (yikes if something happens to it, though--how long does Nembutal last without being refrigerated? A gun might cause problems but if I could get one I would ideally--otherwise I'd just take the SN, after buying a lot more first, and hopefully the debreather if it comes, although I could see that getting fucked up and I could pretty much never open the box.)
The gym idea is probably pretty good that people throw out, somewhere to shower, although being outed as being homeless seems nerve-wracking. And if you have to move where you parked your car you're pretty much anchored into that gym area
Parking fees would fuck it up though, but probably more importantly you'd have to keep your driver's license and registration up to date, and idk what would happen with car insurance, I assume I wouldn't have any. So every time you'd drive you'd take a risk, and if you ever needed your car repaired, you're pretty much screwed because you have nowhere to sleep if that takes a few days
Obviously gas can be super expensive if you're going far distances so you kind of have to drive sparingly, and you'd probably only have so many trips in you.
There are places in the US you can get a seemingly very-livable apartment for $400 a month, so that would probably be my best bet--in some ways more so than a trailer park I think (and I did not grow up in a region with many of those so I'm not super familiar with how they work)
I feel like it would be a lot harder just to mind your own business in a trailer park and have nobody bother you
I'd be cool with living in a car in-and-of-itself, or at least I would be for a while, but there are just so many variables where I probably could never let my guard down and enjoy being free of most obligations. I'd probably just be on edge
I kind of wish I had somewhere else to share this besides this website because I don't entirely trust it, but still
I could work for x amount of years, save up a good amount of money (I have one good but decently uncertain prospect)--could even be like 5 or 6 years which would set me up for life if I lived super frugally which I already planned to (or like 20-40 years which is basically life for me)
Although, inflation (which I probably couldn't fight very well with many bank accounts I'd probably get) or higher rents might screw me
I'd just be afraid of being in a situation where I suddenly lose access to painless suicide methods and thus have to endure the worst of life (or the threat of it)
And I can't even talk to my family bluntly about eventually needing to die because that could really get them in trouble (even if it wouldn't psychologically scar them)
The worst thing for me would be to get them to accept the idea of me keeping open a painless means of suicide if I ever need it, and one day I do it, but then there's a huge societal crackdown on painless suicide methods and they understand the sense of being trapped at the notion, like I often am when faced with it
It would be easier to avoid the creepiness aspect of it in a car vs. a van but that's also way harder to live in
The funny thing is it seems like the appearance of the vehicle you use makes a ton of difference
I've seen some vans that essentially look like scaled-down RVs and I feel like people would be way more comfortable with that
If you could get a phone with unlimited data your boredom is over
For me the uncertainty of any moment of the lifestyle would be the worst though, whether from the law or from (other) vagrants or from pissed locals
It wouldn't be so bad if you had some quality suicide method with you at all times (yikes if something happens to it, though--how long does Nembutal last without being refrigerated? A gun might cause problems but if I could get one I would ideally--otherwise I'd just take the SN, after buying a lot more first, and hopefully the debreather if it comes, although I could see that getting fucked up and I could pretty much never open the box.)
The gym idea is probably pretty good that people throw out, somewhere to shower, although being outed as being homeless seems nerve-wracking. And if you have to move where you parked your car you're pretty much anchored into that gym area
Parking fees would fuck it up though, but probably more importantly you'd have to keep your driver's license and registration up to date, and idk what would happen with car insurance, I assume I wouldn't have any. So every time you'd drive you'd take a risk, and if you ever needed your car repaired, you're pretty much screwed because you have nowhere to sleep if that takes a few days
Obviously gas can be super expensive if you're going far distances so you kind of have to drive sparingly, and you'd probably only have so many trips in you.
There are places in the US you can get a seemingly very-livable apartment for $400 a month, so that would probably be my best bet--in some ways more so than a trailer park I think (and I did not grow up in a region with many of those so I'm not super familiar with how they work)
I feel like it would be a lot harder just to mind your own business in a trailer park and have nobody bother you
I'd be cool with living in a car in-and-of-itself, or at least I would be for a while, but there are just so many variables where I probably could never let my guard down and enjoy being free of most obligations. I'd probably just be on edge
I kind of wish I had somewhere else to share this besides this website because I don't entirely trust it, but still
I could work for x amount of years, save up a good amount of money (I have one good but decently uncertain prospect)--could even be like 5 or 6 years which would set me up for life if I lived super frugally which I already planned to (or like 20-40 years which is basically life for me)
Although, inflation (which I probably couldn't fight very well with many bank accounts I'd probably get) or higher rents might screw me
I'd just be afraid of being in a situation where I suddenly lose access to painless suicide methods and thus have to endure the worst of life (or the threat of it)
And I can't even talk to my family bluntly about eventually needing to die because that could really get them in trouble (even if it wouldn't psychologically scar them)
The worst thing for me would be to get them to accept the idea of me keeping open a painless means of suicide if I ever need it, and one day I do it, but then there's a huge societal crackdown on painless suicide methods and they understand the sense of being trapped at the notion, like I often am when faced with it
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