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Ever since I was introduced to cellphones i've been an online community person.
I had a nextel phone before I had a computer so it started off with AOL messenger.
From there I jumped to this app (we didn't call them apps back then) called AirG. Short for air-games.
I spent years in that space. It was one of the first chat apps and only boostmobile and a few other carriers had it.
I was addicted. This was where most of my education about the dark side of the online world happened.
From porn, to scamming, to e-fighting, prostitution, to what would eventually be know as "Trolling".
For a kid my age, I was merciless. It's also where my grammar nazi tendencies and psychological thinking spawned.

From there came Myspace. At first I had what was a called an RL account for friends and family. This was right around the time I discovered anime and became addicted to that too. I found this Roleplaying community there were you took already drawn anime photos and edited them on photoshop to style them to your liking and make them your own character. It was a very funny and glorious time. Until It became over saturated and slowly began to die down. But this would take about 4 years to happen so yeah.

Then after myspace you would think facebook but no. Never got into facebook for meeting people. Just adding people I knew and keeping track of them. Never engaged in the community side of it. What actually came next was airG again. It had resurfaced but better than before so I again was on there alot.

Then, I guess things changed for me mentally and darkness consumed me and I found 4chan. I don't need to explain to anyone who was there from the jump about what that whole Era was about. We don't talk about that time. Shhhh.

Next came instagram. But not for socializing with the community side. Just amassing random people and watching clips and memes.

Then came reddit. You already know.

Then came discord. You already know.

Then came a website called Jumpinchat that was video chat thing and I was on there every single night.
It was fun while it lasted but the owner eventually had life hit him hard so the site got shut down sadly.
Luckily, there were other sites like tiny chat that did the same thing but less awesome.
There is a new video chat site now but it's sort of niche and I intend to keep it as such.

Until finally, here. Suicide sanction. Where I spent every night now.
This is the most real I've been about myself in all the years of online chatting.
Spilling my heart and soul out to strangers and not trying to put up a front or argue with people for entertainment.

I don't know where I was going with this but It felt good to say it out loud. I have seen and been through many things since the dawn of the internet. And now in this stage of life I reflect back and notice that even though it was technically a waste of time... it is the only happiness ive ever really found in life. Which is sad but true. I love this world. Where reality can be whatever you want sometimes. It's kept me alive for way longer than I intended to be living.





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