suffocation
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- Mar 15, 2019
- 9
The suffering of my life begins around four years, from there every night until I turned twelve I listen, I see and I feel my parents being beaten to death, the police came to my house many nights because of the screams and I just cried all the whore night, from there I could not be the child who played with others in the neighborhood, at that time I got too involved in video games, spent hours, sometimes whole days playing to not think the shit I felt, at fifteen I met a very beautiful girl, '' perfect '', in short, I was with her around three and a half years, at that time we had a daughter, my daughter is light, life, wisdom, future, love, I love her a lot, but the my partner's family forced me to do things I did not want in exchange for me being able to always be with my daughter, they made me declare in court against my own mother threatening me, so I was a year and something, I got tired and decided to leave from her house, from there everything worsened, from there I can not see again to my daughter, when I wanted to return to my home with my mother, because my parents had already separated and my father is in Colombia, very far away, when I wanted to return with my mother, he did not recognize me as a son, he made me sleep in the street , I denigrate myself for having gone to live with my partner and my daughter, made me leave every day and return to the night to sleep, treated like a dog, from that moment I prefer a thousand times to drug, smoke, there is no day where I do not download two packages of cigarettes, go into serious depression, I smoke marijuana all day, I consume lds to control my mind, I'm all cut, I try to suffocate once or twice a day by impulses of depression, I no longer see my friends, today I leave school, I want to kill myself but I'm afraid to do it, just for my daughter, but how can I make my daughter happy if I'm almost dead in life?
