GravityUtilizer
Born to lose
- May 22, 2020
- 737
So I'm 35 and I've just been friendzoned for the millionth time. I call it a curse but - I can't deny - there is a chance it's because I'm ugly. And also because I'm broke. What a catch! I do keep in shape and dress better than I used to but it's not enough to break the curse! Oh no.
Basically this most recent one was a girl I've known for a long time and she's recently single and she brought up the topic of hotels in the text conversation for some reason and I took the innuendo baton and ran with it from there. She basically thinks I'm some kind of sleaze bag now, I think.
I genuinely thought she was flirting.
This is not the first time something like this has happened. I allow just for one minute my self-esteem to rise up enough to think I may stand a slight chance here, before it is promptly put back in its rightful place, down in the gutter of my soul.
It's not the only reason I want to cbt (I'm mentally ill too!) but I'm sure it would help if I had a relationship or got laid at least once in a while.
It was a drag in my teens. It remains so.
Stupid curse.
Basically this most recent one was a girl I've known for a long time and she's recently single and she brought up the topic of hotels in the text conversation for some reason and I took the innuendo baton and ran with it from there. She basically thinks I'm some kind of sleaze bag now, I think.
I genuinely thought she was flirting.
This is not the first time something like this has happened. I allow just for one minute my self-esteem to rise up enough to think I may stand a slight chance here, before it is promptly put back in its rightful place, down in the gutter of my soul.
It's not the only reason I want to cbt (I'm mentally ill too!) but I'm sure it would help if I had a relationship or got laid at least once in a while.
It was a drag in my teens. It remains so.
Stupid curse.