Empty Smile
The final Bell has rung. Goodbye to all.
- Jul 13, 2018
- 1,785
The bells are tolling, indicating my time is near. I have been a member of SS for nearly 2 years, but have been an anxiety, depressed filled somewhat of a half ass human for 40 something years of my life. It's been a long thought out process of where I am now. Nothing I have done has improved my life, or eased my depression, which includes trips to the psych ward, doctors, nurses, medication, and even going into the woods for several months to try and find myself.
In the 2 years I have been here, I have seen people come and go. Some have gone to the other side, and some have gone to give life another chance. I have met some awesome people here, who have been great to talk too.
@Stan, @EvilAngelGoddess, @Jean4, @Rallyon , @SinisterKid , @Final Escape , and others I have missed, you all have been my shoulder to cry on, my rock when I need to be held down. I shall miss all of you.
To all the others, whom I have spoken with, or didn't know you were here, if you can get help, seek it. Some issues can be solved with meds or the right person to talk too. Don't make a final decision on this ctb situation until you have exhausted all chances of healing. It's something you can't reverse once you do the deed.
To the mods who made SS, and those who maintain it to keep it sane, thank you. Without you, most of us would have been laying in a ditch somewhere dead by now, if not for this site. I can, and will, give it the recognition it deserves, as it has kept me alive longer because of the caring people I have come in contact with here.
To the Good Samaritans, and spies who work to bring this site, and any other sites down, do not just focus on the ones who have acted on their suicide. SS has had more turn arounds than you know, but you don't focus on that. I have seen more people give life another go, than the actual suicide.
I will be heading out late tonight to an undisclosed location, do little bit of hiking in the morning to a remote area. Hopefully I will succeed... If not successful, I will remain in the woods and let mother nature run her course. I have always loved being in the woods, and have chosen that to be my final place.
When I determine my time is near, I will self ban, and destroy my phone(I have not used incognito mode for quite some time, and will destroy any evidence of this site).
This song from Ozzy has spoken to me in a way that no human could ever do. It's worth watching if you've never seen it.
Love and peace to all.
In the 2 years I have been here, I have seen people come and go. Some have gone to the other side, and some have gone to give life another chance. I have met some awesome people here, who have been great to talk too.
@Stan, @EvilAngelGoddess, @Jean4, @Rallyon , @SinisterKid , @Final Escape , and others I have missed, you all have been my shoulder to cry on, my rock when I need to be held down. I shall miss all of you.
To all the others, whom I have spoken with, or didn't know you were here, if you can get help, seek it. Some issues can be solved with meds or the right person to talk too. Don't make a final decision on this ctb situation until you have exhausted all chances of healing. It's something you can't reverse once you do the deed.
To the mods who made SS, and those who maintain it to keep it sane, thank you. Without you, most of us would have been laying in a ditch somewhere dead by now, if not for this site. I can, and will, give it the recognition it deserves, as it has kept me alive longer because of the caring people I have come in contact with here.
To the Good Samaritans, and spies who work to bring this site, and any other sites down, do not just focus on the ones who have acted on their suicide. SS has had more turn arounds than you know, but you don't focus on that. I have seen more people give life another go, than the actual suicide.
I will be heading out late tonight to an undisclosed location, do little bit of hiking in the morning to a remote area. Hopefully I will succeed... If not successful, I will remain in the woods and let mother nature run her course. I have always loved being in the woods, and have chosen that to be my final place.
When I determine my time is near, I will self ban, and destroy my phone(I have not used incognito mode for quite some time, and will destroy any evidence of this site).
This song from Ozzy has spoken to me in a way that no human could ever do. It's worth watching if you've never seen it.
Love and peace to all.
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