brokenwaves
i need to cross a border that’s hard to define
- Feb 19, 2021
- 118
family member going for operation in few days due to cancer, they're in their 30s. a wonderful person who has honestly kept me on this earth through all the shit, which has been no easy task. whenever stuff like this happens all i can think is god you don't deserve this - you want to live, you have something to be here for. that should be me, i don't want to be here anyway. i wish i could just swap places with suffering people/tragic deaths i witness, what a waste for them to suffer like this when i am asking for my life to be taken. such a sick joke from the universe to leave me mentally suffering, asking for relief & take life from those that desire it so much sighh
