yellowraincoat225
please, forget I ever existed
- Dec 3, 2024
- 49
I hope I get that transition that some experience before they ctb, where they suddenly feel light, at peace, and full of hope, they'll act optimistic but in retrospect it was very suspicious and out of character. I'm sure it'd weird out some of my friends when I suddenly act happy and positive. My parents will be pleasantly surprised when I actually seem motivated for my future. I'll give them some glimpse of hope before thing's will never be the same again, so that they can cling onto the only memory where I didn't seem like a disappointment.
I hate talking as if my life really had any impact, but I can't pretend my death won't mess things up for everyone I know. I wondered if anyone had any positive memories of me, probably not. And after my death, dealing with the police, telling family members, neighbors gossiping, planning the funeral, etc etc my parents will have an even worse view of me.
I hate talking as if my life really had any impact, but I can't pretend my death won't mess things up for everyone I know. I wondered if anyone had any positive memories of me, probably not. And after my death, dealing with the police, telling family members, neighbors gossiping, planning the funeral, etc etc my parents will have an even worse view of me.
