Ellipsis
Member
- Nov 16, 2022
- 55
My departure is near and although I will stay on the forum until the end, I wanted to send you a message. I wanted to thank all the people who took the time to discuss with me, to help me in my research, sent me the sources, who responded to my posts, but also all those who contributed by posting them too. I have followed your posts with great attention, I regularly see the posts of those of you, thank you. I saw some of you leave this world, I hope you have found peace, that you are well today.
If this account is new, it's because I used another account before, where I posted very often. I have decided to close it for reasons of anonymity and confidentiality.
Thanks to you and to this forum for existing, you have freed me. This site was my refuge for so long, I had no one to turn to, but this forum was still there. Today, I will soon be leaving and paradoxically, I have never been so happy. I am so peaceful that it will all be over: my torment, my demons, my pain, the fact that human life and all its rottenness will never concern me again. I would no longer have to suffer and I would no longer be stuck in this state of consciousness that never leaves me. Of course, I am aware that my attempt at SN could fail. Maybe I will suffer, but regardless, it is imperative that I do. I was born to die. I was never made for life. It's something visceral that my body rejects.
Thank you all, I wish you the best, I would like the suffering to disappear, for the evils of this world to disappear but I understood that it was impossible. Thank you again, I remain at your disposal if needed.
If this account is new, it's because I used another account before, where I posted very often. I have decided to close it for reasons of anonymity and confidentiality.
Thanks to you and to this forum for existing, you have freed me. This site was my refuge for so long, I had no one to turn to, but this forum was still there. Today, I will soon be leaving and paradoxically, I have never been so happy. I am so peaceful that it will all be over: my torment, my demons, my pain, the fact that human life and all its rottenness will never concern me again. I would no longer have to suffer and I would no longer be stuck in this state of consciousness that never leaves me. Of course, I am aware that my attempt at SN could fail. Maybe I will suffer, but regardless, it is imperative that I do. I was born to die. I was never made for life. It's something visceral that my body rejects.
Thank you all, I wish you the best, I would like the suffering to disappear, for the evils of this world to disappear but I understood that it was impossible. Thank you again, I remain at your disposal if needed.
