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Uninfluential_Karma
Rat Cult Leader
- Aug 5, 2024
- 86
Thank you to everyone who responded to me and took a small time out of your day to acknowledge me. I'm so happy I found one place that was open to my feelings and supportive. By the time this posts, I will be doing my first real attempt. I'm going to CTB by hanging myself in my room, it was one of the few options I feel confident in and have access to. If you're wondering what I could of been struggling with, check the about section in my profile. I won't bore you, but in short, all that help went out to me and it did improve things slightly but may have not been enough. If I don't respond any time tomorrow, assume I succeeded in my plan.
Despite deciding to CBT, I still think life has meaning. Mine just happened to be lost and I couldn't find a new one. Please live life for yourselves, not to say other people aren't worth it, but if you can't find meaning for yourself, it's hard to see a way out. If you think there's still hope for you, or you still have hope for hope, please seek out help. Your life is worth trying to save and you are never a waste. Maybe you have tried before but it didn't help, please keep trying anyway. I'm almost certain there will be new things to try that can save at least a few people.
If I don't come back tomorrow, assume I died. I died not in fear, but in anticipation and for once doing something for myself. Maybe you don't believe in an afterlife, but I think I did. Right now I hope I'm reuniting with loved ones and enjoying the new experience. I'm going to send an automated message to my immediate family and my friend and I hope they can forgive me.
Please take care. You all are amazing people, doubt that all you want but it won't change my mind.
- Karma
Despite deciding to CBT, I still think life has meaning. Mine just happened to be lost and I couldn't find a new one. Please live life for yourselves, not to say other people aren't worth it, but if you can't find meaning for yourself, it's hard to see a way out. If you think there's still hope for you, or you still have hope for hope, please seek out help. Your life is worth trying to save and you are never a waste. Maybe you have tried before but it didn't help, please keep trying anyway. I'm almost certain there will be new things to try that can save at least a few people.
If I don't come back tomorrow, assume I died. I died not in fear, but in anticipation and for once doing something for myself. Maybe you don't believe in an afterlife, but I think I did. Right now I hope I'm reuniting with loved ones and enjoying the new experience. I'm going to send an automated message to my immediate family and my friend and I hope they can forgive me.
Please take care. You all are amazing people, doubt that all you want but it won't change my mind.
- Karma