Help Tert-amyl Alcohol arrived, but I'm running out of time and can't get metoclopramide...

[KnightOfEnceladus]

A few people, mostly @nixonnate32 (thank you so much for your help thus far!) already know my plan centers around TAA with some helpers. I unfortunately am running out of time and am rather locked down here, and almost certainly will not be able to get the metoclopramide. NN32 has opined previously that TAA is less likely to cause immediate emesis than many other things as it's less irritating to the mucous membranes, but I'm debating whether/how much else to add to this.

Specifically, I plan to take a low multidose of benadryl, maybe 2-6 regular doses. And I am wondering if adding about 2g of propranolol, which is from 2017 but should still be rather potent, would be wise. Between the H1 and muscaranic antagonism from the benadryl, the massive beta adrenergic blockade from the propranolol, and the GABAergic sledgehammer of hitting myself with the equivalent of 50+ drinks at once by downing all 100mL of TAA, I would think lethality is assured, but I'm worried about puking it all back up, and debating whether to just take 50mL of the TAA and half the propranolol in case I fail and have to try again.

Anyone who can weigh in here, especially on the matter of emesis (vomiting), please do. My time is fast approaching and my options are shrinking...

 

[Meretlein]

Why can't you get meto?

 

[DyingWitsie]

You are gona puke if you dont have antiemetics. It happened to me twice in one week, feeling like my body is refusing to die. Eventually, this body will yield. But i wish you best of luck

 

[Rocksandsand]

Weird suggestion - but have you thought about using the alcohol intravenously? Bypass the stomach altogether?

 

[KnightOfEnceladus]

@Meretlein: not enough money (yes, I can't spare even $20...) and am living with a very traumatized relative whose PTSD makes her controlling and scary. If she sees this stuff she'll want to know what's going on...

@DyingWitsie: Are you sure? TAA is a lot less irritating from the reports I've read than regular alcohol is, and I'll be taking some benadryl and a bunch of propranolol too. I don't mind vomiting if I'm unconscious, stay unconscious, and aspirate it.

Come on, 100mL of TAA is something like 50-80 standard drinks, isn't it? I'm a teetotaler, 5'10" and about 160 lb, big for a woman but nothing outrageous. People manage to kill themselves accidentally with nothing but plain old ethanol...

Did you try TAA as well and are reporting from experience with it? What did you take that you threw up?

@Rocksandsand: Don't have the equipment or knowledge to pull that off. I was considering an enema method, along with leaving a note stating that I am not a klismaphiliac, thank you very much, and to please just understand I needed to end it.