willitpass
Don’t try to offer me help, I’ve tried everything
- Mar 10, 2020
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i've not been actively suicidal as of late and thus have not been attempting or planning any method. however i have begun doing little "science experiments" on myself, testing the limits of my body in ways that may bite me in the ass later in life. i accidentally inhaled a lot of bleach and glass cleaner at work a couple of weeks ago and my lungs burned so bad i called poison control. after the symptoms subsided the next day, i decided to start inhaling them intentionally to see what happened. nothing happened after multiple attempts so i gave up. now i have been consuming very large amounts of caffeine to see what happens. i had two monster energy drinks last night around 10pm. i needless to say did not sleep much. this morning i had a caffeinated breakfast bar with 65mg of caffeine and am drinking a cup of coffee. i plan on having a kickstart sometime soon. i know this is a bad idea and if it goes too far it will hurt like a mother fucked but i don't care anymore if i'm being honest. i don't mind pain