AnnaJaspers

AnnaJaspers

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Jul 2, 2019
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I have one remaining family member alive--an older brother whom I am basically estranged from.

Have tried repeatedly to tell him of my intent to die, either with an Exit Bag or at a Swiss Clinic (which I am in the process of applying to), and I am met with NO RESPONSE OR REACTION.

This hurts me a great deal, but I am not surprised considering that we have divergent views on everything and he was and continues to be an abusive bully.
 
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BobbyPellitt

BobbyPellitt

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Sep 4, 2019
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I won't even bother leaving a note. All those years crying for help with no result. Well, It's too late now, I've lost all hope and simply can't be bothered anymore.
 
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Jean4

Remember. I am ALWAYS right.... until I’m not
Apr 28, 2019
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I'm so sorry. Know we will be here for you :)
 
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Hey Anna, I know how you feel, even if its not my brother I told about it. He hadn't been a good brother in my childhood.... He changed as he got older, quite a good man now, but I didn't change. Well, I told my mother, that I can't stand it any longer, well... a lot of times. Sometimes she even cried, as she heard about my desperation, but she is good at repressing it and act like everythings fine. She keeps telling me, that I just should change this and that, it wouldn't be a big deal, just change my mind and Iam good. I think, thats her way trying to help me, but we're playing this "game" for 3 years now and she's still not able to understand, what Iam struggling with, what makes my life unbearable.
It's horrible... I really love her, it's not her fault. And I could be strong enough in all those years not to commit suicide, just because of her. I don't want her to suffer. She will suffer terribly, I know that. But I reached a point, where I cannot continue any longer. I can't see any future and the last fights are fought. I wouldn't be able to continue anything, because I will lose everything I have, but... her.
I haven't seen her in the last 3 months, because I wanted her to get over it more... easily. She is so sad, that Iam not calling her... Usually I visit her every week and it hurts so much, that I can't be with her. I know, 3 months is nothing. She will be devastated anyway. Iam glad she still gots my brother and his wife and son.
I wished she could understand what Iam going through.
 
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Rachel74

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I have one remaining family member alive--an older brother whom I am basically estranged from.

Have tried repeatedly to tell him of my intent to die, either with an Exit Bag or at a Swiss Clinic (which I am in the process of applying to), and I am met with NO RESPONSE OR REACTION.

This hurts me a great deal, but I am not surprised considering that we have divergent views on everything and he was and continues to be an abusive bully.
I'm the same I've asked that is if got worse Switzerland is the way I want to go. I know Dignitas won't take mentally ill patients yet but exit do. My partner knows all this.
 
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I have one remaining family member alive--an older brother whom I am basically estranged from.

Have tried repeatedly to tell him of my intent to die, either with an Exit Bag or at a Swiss Clinic (which I am in the process of applying to), and I am met with NO RESPONSE OR REACTION.

This hurts me a great deal, but I am not surprised considering that we have divergent views on everything and he was and continues to be an abusive bully.
That is so cruel of him - I am so sorry- and you must have exceptionally good reasons if you are applying for a clinic! he is obviously not a good or kind person at all- to not even react to you.
 
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