Nymph
he/him
- Jul 15, 2020
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I once hinted that I want to ctb to my dad and he said that he dedicated his entire life to me and he works so that me and my mom can be happy. I know he works nonstop and really hard to make money because my mom is a stay at home wife. He has depression in his family and takes medication. He told me that if I'm gone then there's no reason for him to exist (something along those lines) if I do end up CTBing do you guys think he would CTB too or stay alive for my mom? I've always wanted to CTB but this is one of the reasons that I haven't yet. I don't want to break apart my entire family just because of 1 death. I wish suicide was more acceptable and not such a taboo. When I play the devils advocate I usually tell myself that after all they only created me for their own selfish reasons and that I didn't get to choose if I want to live. Also since my dad's depression runs in the family they didn't even think about the possibility that I'll get it too. I talked about that with my mom and she told me that: people don't think about all the possibilities of what illnesses their children might have, otherwise there would be no babies!- well maybe you should have because that's the reason I want to CTB. I need your opinions.
Edit; just a quick side note, I have thought about waiting till my parents are gone but that would be a way to long
Edit; just a quick side note, I have thought about waiting till my parents are gone but that would be a way to long
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