Venting talking feels useless

[batmanreal]

i think i'm just incompetent when it comes to expressing myself. everything i say gets misinterpreted and things are always awkward. even in goofy discussions about comic book characters or video games, my thoughts get misinterpreted.
no one ever seems to understand me when i vent about what makes me suicidal. i'll vent to someone, they say that they relate, but then proceed to give advice or tell me something that makes no sense and has no relation to what i had just vented about. trying to further explain my thoughts never helps anything, it just makes me feel guilty.

throughout my entire life, there have only been a few people who haven't consistently misinterpreted my words. looking back, i think they're just especially good at talking to people—even if the person they're talking to is speaking nonsense.
i feel like i'm going crazy, everything i say is just wrong. at first, i just assumed everyone else was the problem, but that doesn't make sense. it's obviously an issue with me, but i'm not sure how to fix it. i read back the things i write, that doesn't really help. i try to condense my thoughts into the simplest sentences possible, that makes things worse. i outright ask the other person, "what do you think i'm trying to say?", and their answer is usually very different from what i was actually saying. when i explain what i actually meant, they say they understand, and then they go back to what they were saying before.

i get that i ramble a lot and sometimes my grammar is shit, but this happens constantly, no matter how i try to frame my point.

 

[MissAbyss]

Story of my life.
There is nothing wrong with how you're expressing yourself right now..
Most people lack communication skills, especially listen carefully. Most people only listen to reply.
Just be yourself and you will find the right people eventually.